Either Durianrider Goes to Jail, or I Do.

the allegations made against me by
durianrider are simultaneously so serious and so ridiculous that many of them have been passed by without comment in that he's accused me of so many things and said that he wanted to actually apprehend me beat me up but take me to a police station and then use even more violence against me if the police here in Thailand failed to arrest me or put me in jail given the seriousness of that the bleakness of that people have not even bothered to comment on understandably the fact that he has also been saying again and again that I'm fat it's worth musing on in terms of the absurdity of the situation and in terms of who you people are my audience Jerian riders audience vegans in 2016 that that is even remotely acceptable that anyone can still respect him now the two things look my ego is not in the game in that way I mean if someone calls me an idiot they're entitled to their opinion I'm not gonna feel stupid because somebody off the internet scoff be an idiot it happens it's part of the game as it happens right now I'm not fat but if I were even matter I'm not trying to be a bikini model and the interest my audience has in me does not rest on my physique if I gained 15 pounds it wouldn't matter to the people who want to hear my message you want to interact with me online and people who care sincerely about ethical veganism ecology political organization and make a difference now in terms of what I should look like right now I mean for the sake of it you guys already got a shirtless selfie of me it's taking just couple days ago [Music] it is what it is it's not what my life is about but I managed to keep in okay shape for a guy who is a divorced parents you know worried about his daughter worried about making money to support his family studying several languages you know I have a straight job in China I'm still a university student in Canada so I have different academic aspirations intellectual aspirations career aspirations I have a lot going on in my life that's not a complaint if I had the option to quit my job quit all my responsibilities and in fact a bicycle up and down the hill in Thailand so I could look better physically than I do now look what kind of a human beings would I be if that hypothetical words that's who I was I wouldn't respect that guy I'm you know if his YouTube channel was funny or entertaining I might watch it but I wouldn't I would respect that guy and on some level I think my viewers some of them may become posted them they respect the fact that you know my life is a struggle and I'm honest and open about that struggle and then above and beyond that when I have time I like to do things that approximate vegan activist so one of my podcasts by the way I make I make yet more content exclusive to patreon so I know I upload too much to YouTube already but there's even more content that you get if you subscribe maybe one of them one of my podcasts has as its title why I am NOT an activist and you know the other day here when we did the karaoke event there was a young woman who has been organizing vegan activism I'll put it in quotation marks vegan activism on a really low-key small scale ends inside mainland China and one of the big cities in China of course I was very interested talk to her it's very rewarding conversation for me I heard about the techniques used but in terms of what kind of political activism is possible in China they were doing things like they formed a group and they would arrange to have a meeting with the owner of a restaurant that it is for many restaurants and they would explain what veganism is and ask if the restaurant just add one vegan option to the menu so in vegans ate there they they had one one caption on the menu that is very sato watch a very low-key and many people here would claim that's that's not activism at all because they have a some higher standard well let me tell you in the People's Republic of China in 2016 I'm genuinely impressed with her I'm genuine person that to me that's very meaningful activism and my ability to be an activist while I was University student in Canada or now teaching University classes in China incredibly limited really really I can't be an activist at all but what I can do you guys have seen I mean in the last month I've made a huge effort to do to the utmost level I possibly could I'm very ambitious and if there's one thing that I can respect above freelee and durianrider it's that they're ambitious people also however that ambition gets stated in a way that's denigrating to all of us when they claim that they are the most effective vegan activists in the world that's really worth musing on I made a video more than a year ago that has leaders and followers in the title and it's reflecting on the problem of political leadership and veganism it talks about Gary Yourofsky free leader and writer or several other examples too and in that time at that time I gave the serious concession to freely writer I said look they they may not have chosen this you know like maybe they didn't choose to be in this leadership role so we have to get them some credit maybe they just want to live this lifestyle sell diet book sell cookbooks ride a bicycle and they didn't choose to be in the city up role but you know since then I can't give them that concession anymore it is quite a claim to say that you are the most effective vegan activists in the world and in terms of their mission and their mandate they are recklessly arrogant and you know they do they do take on a leadership role that neither one of them is capable of handling responsibly and I come back to this obviously they're challenged by me everyone is you have to appreciate you know I'm and I'm quite intentionally dealing with some of the most difficult aspects of veganism this channel doesn't exist to recruit people who've never heard of veganism before although it does I continue to get email and messages from people who became vegan because of this channel but this this channel is not veganism 101 it's not intro to veganism there are already a hundred other channels to this this is advanced veganism this is the level of veganism where we admit there are some problems we don't have answers to there are some you know issues that we can't fully understand I've just had some discussion on patreon recently from from vegans who are directly involved in agriculture and growing plants about the ways in which they inevitably kill animals kill insects and what-have-you and the contradictions that go into that I've sparked some wonderful discussion by talking about vivisection by killing and torturing animals in in laboratories for scientific research I had people getting in touch with me who were themselves medical researchers scientists of various kinds but who were also vegan and who are aware of these contradictions I'm worried about them now when I look at that when I look at those people and I look at freely and durianrider who do I want to have on my team if I'm actually trying to save the world who do I want to organize who do I want supporting me who do I want to support it's gonna be those scientists and I don't mean that out of simple elitism or snobbery all right I need people who can show up on time I need people I mean be wonderful if I could throw a conference just have seven or ten of these people vegan vegan research scientists and the life sciences come together if I what it'll be wonderful tremendously productive but I mean you know if you think about doing something better than Petta better than people for their career think about putting together an organization that is better than Greenpeace we want to out do that we want to eclipse that we want to be a next generation that's better than anything came before that really clearly articulates and pursues the goals of veganism ecologically and ethically who do you think I want to work with a scientist who is making the compromise to torture rats to death and who may feel you know bad about it emotionally who's aware of the issues and options but he does kill some animals in a lab and while being vegan otherwise refusing to eat meat and so on someone who's intelligent discipline of you or someone who has given up all of their responsibilities in the Western world to leave on permanent vacation and who is so simple-minded that they respond to the challenge posed by someone like me by saying you're fat as they at the moment I'm not fat I'm also not a bodybuilder but he doesn't matter in terms of my message my audience what I'm doing the future of veganism if I gain 10 pounds or lose 10 pounds it doesn't matter and these people are so deeply into so-called lifestyle activism that the real meaning of activism has been provided to them ok now the reality is nobody has even bothered to mention this issue because saying that I'm fat because the other allegations are so serious and who's responsible right now naturally I say this really you know I sympathize people have come out with a number of conspiracy theories trying to say that this whole thing started because one particular teenager made up allegations in the pursuit of fame basically and suggesting that one youtuber in Scotland who I'm not gonna name somehow had a conversation that led to this being misinterpreted it's complete nonsense ok there is no mastermind behind the scenes that created this mess alright there's nobody other than durianrider doing this durianrider and freely sat down at their keyboard and created this mess and you can see if you just look at the sequence of messages they just searched around for one pretext after another one scrap or rumor after another to try to defame me with and yes some of those scraps came from this one teenager and her blog and some of them came may may have come from this woman in Scotland but it's ridiculous some of them are made up completely out of thin air I mean you know when something is completely arbitrary you don't learn anything new through its analysis you know you can see that the motivation is malice and you can see the methods used who is responsible in my earlier video in this I started by stating very clearly and I'm a shout out to Hannah Hannah has stated it again at the end of her video evil is not just what happens when evil people do evil things evil is what happens when good people stand idly by and do nothing okay that is the problem here I saw a crowd shot from this year's festival so you know someone at the festival took photos of who's sitting in the crowd and you know so many thoughts came to mind for one thing of course the the supposed importance of this event has just been massively exaggerated they're just there aren't that many people involved secondly of course you look at that crowd do you think where are the tough guys who are supposed to come and beat me up looking at this crowd of people I you know whether or not in these people there are any serious activists who are seriously gonna work to make the world a better place in the future that's another question but when I look at this crowd I do not see a bunch of tough guys who are gonna come and beat down my door or we're gonna find me in the street kidnap me beat me and drag me to a police station and of course as you guys know if you've been following this I responded to that threat by saying meet me at the police station you want me to feature let's go now when they said they wanted to fit with me I said meet me in a fist fight anytime anywhere I've said before I am NOT a tough guy but I'm tougher than these guys okay you know I'm gonna degress here slightly you know it would be worthless for me to read out all the correspondence the earlier video the earlier video showed on screen very rapidly exactly what during writer said and what I said when we had our one and only conversation about it he's never sent me an email he's never talked to me by Skype he has refused to meet me face to face he's both refused me to have a conversation and he's refused to me to follow up on his threats of violence say okay if that's what it's going to be that's what it's going to be at one point in the middle of that conversation you can see the earlier video for the whole thing this is what I wrote to him this is me quoting myself I say to him if you're upset I can sympathize just emphases that's how this message opens okay this guy has made so many insults and threats against me you know again from the banal like claiming that I'm fat too you know things that really could be brought to a court of law to put him behind bars claiming that I'm a pedophile that I'm a sexual predator that I should go to jail absolutely no basis and even again even in terms of the timing you know not only were that was there no possible victim I hadn't even many once I've been in Chiangmai for maybe two days when these allegations were made and it's like allegedly I you know approach to multiple teenage girls or something absolutely ridiculous anyway but despite that and despite his continuing to you know whatever harass me threatened me defamed me publicly it opens by saying if you're upset I can sympathize you guys have already seen my Steve's you've already seen how I roll you see the video with the apology too freely if you feel bad I'm actually down to help you and make you feel better even if I don't like you because you know what that's that's what morality is all about ethics is not about helping people you like it's not about how good you are to people who agree with you okay it's actually about how good you are to everyone it's about how you behave under pressure under the worst type of crisis in the middle of a war in the middle of a famine it's about how you help people when you've got nothing to give [Music] I can't believe any of you people respect someone as a leader who brags that he's been to prison and he was a grown man insults another grown man by saying he's fat going to prison doesn't mean you're tough going to prison just means you got God spending time in prison doesn't make you tough I've been through real suffering in my life real sorrow okay I've got a lot of things that we've over in my life this guy is tried it with everyone and I think I'm the first person who was too hot to handle because I just said to him look if it's on it's on and then from that moment he backed down and he started playing the victim he kept moving the goal posts he kept redefining what it was I was supposedly guilty of etc etc but look I'll tell you who I am I'm someone who knows what it's like to be flat broke and to be doing humanitarian work to help people who were born poorer than yourself okay I'm someone who knows what it's like to be trying to volunteer for humanitarian work when you're unemployed you've only got so much money in the bank and you don't know where your next meal is coming from I volunteered to do humanitarian work on refugee camps on the Tiber means border I was looking for humanitarian work in Sri Lanka during the Sri Lankan Civil War you know and in Laos I actually did do some humanitarian work in Cambodia I did do some but you spend a lot more time applying for that work than doing it and when I was in Canada I was applying for humanitarian work the whole range I tried to do humanitarian work in prisons I tried to volunteer you know what that's not in front of okay if you're a free man and you volunteer to help people in prison which I've done in both England and in Canada I've volunteered and I never got the opportunity that's the reality of humanitarian work you spend way more time applying for this stuff then actually finding opportunities and doing them but yeah you know what I've lived in different places where I also try to get involve Prison activism prison education helping people present that's nothing to brag about any of you people who sit in that crowd who support this guy I wrote to him in these circumstances my message opens with if you're upset I can sympathize I've made friends with all kinds of vegans including vegans with very different political views from my own very different religious views etc obviously you know you've hurt the feelings of a lot of people including your former friends Jason and Honya etc and I'm sure you've felt that your feelings were hurt too that's okay you can talk to me about it however the one thing you can't do is threaten to kidnap me beat me up etc or send a squad of goons to my house if you actually want to have a boxing match with me I've offered that if you want to have a Skype call or a face-to-face meeting I've offered that to you used to hate a guy named passion and fruit remember that but you guys talked calm down and moved on do you really want this to end with blood and teeth on the street you say you've been to jail that's cool I've suffered a great deal in my life too but I don't use that as a pretext to cause more suffering I also don't really care about getting hurt going to jail I don't care if I live or die but your slogan is save the planet etc why are you behaving this way toward another vegan if we're both really trying to save the planet I said before in the other video toughness means more than one thing there's more than one way to be tough and this is not about being tough what could be more relevant than a contest in Chiangmai to find out who's the tougher guy but there's no other contest he could try to have with me as there what's he used to doing who's thinner who can ride a bike faster it's not gonna be who's smarter Jesus Christ how can anyone continue to support this guy as a diet guru as a political leader as a legal leader in the vegan community I don't exaggerate my own importance I'm not famous I'm not rich I'm not powerful what I am is the proverbial canary in the coalmine he's done this to a lot of other people before in the past different in some ways similar in some but in my case it's really clear-cut there aren't two two sides of the story you guys have seen all the facts you know what God said you know what happened and there's no basis for the rumors I didn't have anyone here who was my girlfriend I didn't have any contacts I didn't have even a single conversation with a single teenager I didn't even go out on a date with a single woman year nothing happened this was fabricated out of thin air just to defame me to attempt to humiliate me and then in the same message in the same brushstroke to intimidate me to threaten me with violence to try to instigate violence to demand others assault me which he did openly in the Internet repeatedly but you know I mean that one line in there is deep I've suffered a lot also but I don't use that as a pretext to uh to cause suffering to others who's to blame there is no grand scheme there is no brilliant person behind the scenes putting these things together all right there is no rational explanation for what's irrational and arbitrary in this what there is is a crowd of people good people psychologically healthy people self disciplined people people who aren't crazy or insane or even mean-spirited who are allowing the staff it's your fault all of you whether you're on YouTube or you're here in Chiangmai riding your bicycle up that mountain sitting in that parking lot listening to the lectures every day from these people and I know it's inconvenient for you to do the right thing if you're here you've already spent thousands of dollars airplane tickets hotels what-have-you to come here and enjoy this event it's a really inconvenient time for you to do the right thing it's a really inconvenient time for you to stand up and say this is bad and it's immoral and it's wrong but that's the nature of ethics you don't get to be a good person when it's convenient for you I knew a man he was my boss from Germany it was a very elderly man I have told this story and they didn't before but very briefly his mother had been a member of the Nazi Party and she quit and everyone in her town knew that she quit and that's already dangerous of course he's very interesting she wasn't killed she wasn't put in prison she had been a member of the Nazi Party but when she found out that the Holocaust was happening very openly at a public meeting of the Nazi Party she lost her faith and she basically you know ended up tearing up her membership well she quit she canceled her membership now she didn't join the resistance she didn't start fighting against the Nazi Party she didn't do anything heroic or self-sacrificing and of course I imagine that's partly just because of who she was as a character but it's probably partly because she had a son she had a very small child she was raising and that small child later became my boss when he was an elderly man so you know not everyone gets to be a hero and there's nothing heroic in what she did but obviously it's morally good she had more courage than all the other people in that room who were members who didn't quit when they found him the people were here now sitting on the hill riding their bikes up they won't all find out about this at the same time the same way during the World War 2 era that Sarah people didn't know find out about the Holocaust the same time found out one by one over years but as soon as you found out the questions what you do okay when you found out that this is who durianrider really is what did you do it's not his fault for being crazy it's not the fault of some teenage gossip for making up stupid teenage guys okay it's your fault everyone who's not standing up and drawing the line to say no here's the line and here's what's over the line and threatening to beat someone up threatening to kidnap them making serious defamatory remarks this is not like saying that someone wears too much makeup on the Internet okay serious defamation defamation that you go to jail for here's the line and know this is not acceptable it wouldn't be acceptable for me it wouldn't be acceptable for Bill Clinton it wouldn't be acceptable for the town mayor it wouldn't be acceptable for the lead singer in a rock band why is the standard for a leader in the vegan community so much lower okay you know think of any popular singer if they said or did what Turing wrote it's true in our society we're pretty permissive for someone who's a rock star they can get away with a lot of bad behavior but not this what durianrider did to me all of you know he can do it to you next he can do it to anybody the same way he's done it to a random assortment of people some of them teenagers also denounce them threatened with insinuated people are gonna come over those two beat them up okay but I am the canary in the coal mine in my case it's all well documented it's all in the open it's all clear-cut and there's no basis for any rumors or innuendo the last reply I got from durianrider before I blocked him on Facebook which ended the discussion the last message I got from head was so sue me then and he follows it up with a curse word I don't want to take durianrider to court but it will I don't want to play the victim here because I don't feel like the victim this didn't hurt me this isn't about me and my feelings this is about really asking the question of whether or not veganism as a social movement can have a future it's not gonna be this way folks it's not gonna be with someone like Torian Ryder doing what he did and getting away with it part of this is about real world veganism real world activism and part of it is about digital veganism what we do here on YouTube okay Allie Tabrizi the friendly activists I'm calling you out man Allie Tabrizi he's a normal guy he in that basic sense he's a good person I just think he's not crazy he's basically morally mentally sound evil is what happens when good people stand by and do nothing why wouldn't someone like Elly Tabrizi take a stand on this I know he has and I know he won't because I asked him to Allie Tabriz he has been a fan of my channel for more than a year I think maybe I'm slightly off number of months Allie Tabrizi has sent me fan mail I'm not gonna read it out it was personal fan mail not just sometimes just praising my channel in general saying how much it meant to him how meaningful he found it how much some particular video had moved him or matter to him okay obviously he doesn't agree with everything I say it's not the point as I said earlier in this video what I'm doing here is overtly challenging and edgy I'm dealing with issues like vivisection and the contradiction within agriculture that are hard for us to face with power could have for a second thing it's the first time all right hey not not quite third world conditions yet maybe you'll have a lot more that in China pal we're kind of in the hold for a second but look man I don't want to hear the excuses I know one of my fans got in touch with Nita around his dad and said look this is really serious why don't you take a stand and it's not about me it's not about taking a stand and saying I'm a nice guy or my channel is good it's about drawing a line we say this is acceptable this is unacceptable this is the line here's what's over the line that's exactly what everyone in the vegan community needs to say and needs to hear and there's no debate about this it's not debatable falsely accusing someone of being a sexual predator and a pedophile threatening to beat them up and said nobody thinks this is acceptable vegan activism not even Gary Yourofsky Gary Yourofsky is Pro violence he wouldn't approve of a single goddamn thing Jerry and writer has said or done including he wouldn't you wouldn't agree with durianrider calling me fat what kind of vegan activism is this you know so this there's no debate that this is over the line what there is is a code of silence and it's a code of silence from a bunch of goddamn hypocrites of two kinds one kind of the people who are spending money and don't want to feel that money is wasted and the other kind of the people were making money out of it the people who are chasing money people were trying to get rich and famous by riding on Terry and Ryder and freelee's coattails Ally to Breezy that's what you are I know you don't think you are but you are okay I'm sorry the whole culture of flattering these people of making up excuses for these people after it's happened one time after another who's been drawing the line and saying no here's the line here's what's over thought I have been that's why they hate me so much I made videos that I know they watched oh they responded to I made videos clearly talking about the importance of being innocent until proven guilty talking with the importance of not thinking in terms of vigilante justice of not thinking like a Batman from a comic book this is real life not a comic book and guess what when you threatened to beat up a guy like me unlike a comic book I don't run away I say okay where do you want to meet me nobody took me up on that none of these guys who hide behind their keyboards not durianrider and not show best all right not Brett Rawlings all you guys have offered to have a conversation a human being offered to cooperate and clarity I'm trying to sling positive you're trying to lynch me you're trying to put me on a you know you're trying to destroy me publicly on the basis of the fact that I have contacted teenagers I speak with hundreds of vegans per year hundreds over the past several years since I started my blog before I ever had a YouTube channel when I started my blog at a newborn daughter taking care of a newborn baby and with this free time I had I was on the internet trying to contact other vegans my first priority was vegans in the same country I was living in my second priority was trying to get ties with vegan parents vegans who are already raising kids trying to get a group going for vegans you know vegans with kids but you know yeah my guess my third priority was everybody else and I talked to all kinds of people age whatever age 18 to 80 whatever still true today there are hundreds of people who follow this channel up who know me personally talk to me on skype who you know who have shared my life with who become a meaningful part of my life you know because I did this for years you know you can call it we call it outreach and God activism I mean you know and you're trying to claim that I'm a sexual predator on the basis of the fact that I have ever sent an email to someone who was 18 years old or something again it's not even worth refuting you look through the videos on this channel you know again I don't blame them all right yet during a writer is legit crazy he's been honest with you about his psychological history he has come out publicly and stated that he's been diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder he has also stated that he's been diagnosed with anorexia he's stated that he's been diagnosed with an amazing list of mental and physical disorders he's also remarked that some of his doctors thought he was a compulsive liar not he I'd haven't heard him say it was a diagnosis but he's been honest with you are you being honest with yourself and I mean that for both categories of people you the people who spent thousands of dollars to come here on this vacation and you don't want to feel like they wasted that money who just want to have a nice vacation who just want to ignore the fact that their guru threatened to beat someone up denounced him as a pedophile a sexual predator predator and said he was going to put me in jail you wanted to know that because it's not convenient for you to enjoy your vacation it's an inconvenient time for you to be a morally good person well you sit there on your ass ride your bicycle and eat luxury organic fruit and think you're a morally good person because let's face it you're in Chiangmai there's nothing more entertaining than the goddamn ego trip that you're on ok the entertainment value is in your belief that you're a good person and you're saving the world unlike the girl who bags your groceries at the grocery store or unlike your boss at work who you hate or unlike all the people you have petty resentments against well guess what you're not and I'm the canary in the coal mine who proves it because the girl who bags her groceries at the grocery store she might stand up she might interrupt her vacation she might do the right thing and the second category is people just like Ally Tabrizi just like Nina and randa's father just like a whole cluster Bonnie Rebekah whatever III have never spoken with Bonnie Rebecca but I mean all of these people who see in freelee and durianrider a road to their own personal fame wealth etc and they'll let this go on alright evil is what happens when good people stand by and do nothing and I'm asking you to do something not for me not for you for the future of veganism I'm gonna end this with a really quick parable there was a famous record producer a famous man and the music industry called Phil Spector you've never heard of him you can google it you'll see right away when I'm talking about Phil Spector made hit records so everybody in the music industry is making money out of them sometimes he beat people up sometimes he got it a gun pointed at people sometimes he put bullets in the wall he'd have temper tantrums in the recording studio he'd get outta line nobody wanted to put him in his place nobody wanted to put him in prison he was making money and it's not just money right it's money and fame so many people that hey even if this guy pointed a gun at me even if he's crazy even if he's dangerous if he can get me money and fame if you can get me a ten record that I'm going to work with them and for the for the studio for the executives of course of even more tempting just put it under the rug just ignore it eventually Phil Spector committed murder eventually he killed someone and two lives could have been saved if somebody had stood up and done the right thing earlier the victims life could have been saved because the murder would have been prevented but Phil Spector's life would have been saved also does anyone watching this actually think it would be bad for durianrider if he were stopped I don't I think you'd be helping him I think what durianrider is doing isn't just destructive it isn't just harmful to people like me and people like you because he can do it to you next the same way he's done to so many others I think it's destructive for him also I think for him it's self-destructive I think you'd be helping him out sincerely if you put him in his place if you drew the line at this point I think we'd be helping him out if we gave him his greatest desire and put him in jail I do I think he'd have a shot at actually becoming a better person but if we don't you all know what's gonna happen you all know what this game is okay it doesn't stop till we say stop alie Tabrizi the friendly activist until you stop kissing their ass stop flattering them until you say hey you know what I had a bright idea today threatening to beat someone that one up kidnapped them thready navigating of people assault them on a street corner sir hey you know what that's over the line I don't have wealth I don't have time I don't have power I don't have influence okay I don't have a stray lien citizenship I'm living back and forth between conveying and Shane lied this year I think it would be irresponsible for me if I did not put together these charges and talk to a lawyer about going to court not for the sake of revenge not for the sake of my ego not for any other reason because people have asked me if I don't do it who will and this is such an open-and-shut case the evidence is so blatant everyone sees it everyone knows it the only question is whether or not you're going to make up excuses in your own head for it so I'm asking whether it's through patreon or through my public email for the first time I'm going to invite lawyers in Australia any law firm in Australia that will give me an initial consultation I will talk to them about pressing charges in Australia many people have already offered to donate money I have several fans who are wealthy who said that they will donate money to put durianrider behind bars or to sue him or to press charges for defamation uttering threats and citing violence etc for the different things that have come up in this case at this time I it would be irresponsible for me to accept donations or to start a GoFundMe because I haven't spoken to a lawyer yet and among the things that a lawyer has to determine is the issue of jurisdiction because I'm a Canadian citizen it is not easy for me to take a court to an Australian court of law I will be a Canadian citizen resident in the People's Republic of China look I'm not gonna lie to you durianrider is such a goddamn joke that there is no way his allegations against me could ever be used in a court of law in France in my divorce case all right plate I do talk openly about the fact that I have a three-year-old daughter and I'm in court right now trying to resolve the petty details of exactly how much time I get to spend with my daughter when I get to see her etc there are videos on this channel there's one over an hour long telling the whole story of where the situation I'm very open about that I talk about that I think it is useful for other people to hear it other people going through divorces send me fan mail too and you know it's part of my overall transparency it's part of the function of this channel okay I do not think there is any chance that my ex-wife's lawyer would take you know these statements off the internet that I was supposed to be arrested in Thailand for pedophilia or being a sect brother and present them in a court of law but I think there's a 0% chance of that you know what it's tremendously sad just even think about that possibility it's tremendously sad to think that someone fabricating this kind of case against me could actually deprive me of the right to see my daughter okay and they do fabricate evidence they have for example I'm not searching for this stuff but they have created fake profiles for underage girls sending me messages try and have sex with me on the internet and then they take photographs of those fake profiles sending me those messages and you know share them on the Internet to defame me okay I know because I've gotten the messages I can I can see I'm not idiot I can see their fake profiles and so on and I've heard from other people who were in the groups ordering writer as shared these these images where his fans have him sorry I was told it was during writer himself who shared them it's possible that it's his fans that shouldn't simultaneously this is a situation that is completely fake and yet it's the realest thing in the world simultaneously I can say to you this is so serious that it's not a game I can also say to you this is a complete joke it's just a [ __ ] game okay veganism should not be okay