Stella Rae is my hero: so honest and authentic.

and then I just started having really
bad bloating again and if you go to my blogs around this time last year I was eating oatmeal every single day and every day after I would eat the oatmeal it was like vegan oatmeal just like basic healthy I would be so bloated like I would go to the gym after I would eat that you like an hour so after and I would be so uncomfortable I didn't even want to work out I remember going to acupuncture and she was kind of asking me about my diet and what I was doing and I was kind of telling her you know I was vegan but I've kind of been experimenting with trying some fish and she was like yeah like I do think it's important to incorporate a plant-based foods she's like but I do think that everyone is different kind of just what I said that reassurance and kind of tips and tricks as well as I experienced telling me like you know you are having these issues and you've had them for so long and also just with working out and stuff just wanted to make sure that I was good actually getting enough food and protein which I know was like shocking it's just so shocking for me to say that I remember eating more like eggs like whole eggs more fish I remember I tried chicken I was so sure but I remember just craving it so bad even with eating salmon and egg ihe cancellation so shocking look if you told me I would do this two three years ago I would have not been so easy okay I just felt so much better I wasn't feeling constantly hungry I wasn't feeling bloated and just unsatisfied after every meal my poop's couple regular and also around the time I started noticing more muscle growth and you guys started noticing it too but we're asking me like what workouts have you been doing like oh my god like this remember still feeling guilty am i - this isn't right for me to be doing and I don't know if I'm gonna be doing this long-term so I don't want to share it with people with I'm not sure about it myself that's why I kind of stopped making what I eat in a day videos kind of talking about it because I was like I don't want to live but I don't want to share what I've been doing and I feel like overall just like my channel suffered as a result of that because I didn't feel like I could be my real self but again I didn't want to be someone I wasn't those kind of hard doing I'm creative and like I could again be my real self and share my real life with people I feel like I'm talking about its own white way to you but it would like to such a struggle every day I would spend so much money on like probiotics and digestive enzyme I was drinking so much water I was working out like I was eating a greens like it was just so confusing to me bloating just went go away until I started and I feel like overall just like my channel suffered as a result of that because I didn't feel like I could be my real self even you my real self by observing the backlash that other once vegan youtubers have been getting a lot of vegans are like I'm so disappointed in you you fail I think you're more of a failure if you just keep going along with something I'd rather live in my truth and share my real authentic experiences maybe be my real self no more muscle I do like to discuss these social and political issues [Music]