Sv3rige: Carnivore Caveman Heartbroken Supervictim.

the insane depression started with uh
luna messaging me and telling me i could see my son and then ignoring me to abuse me punish me i don't know at the end what the point was and uh then this sunday uh catherine also left yeah of course i was in a weak situation and you used it but that's my point that's what i want to point out that you're a predator so to speak but i think in nature everyone's a predator yeah i'm not saying that it's wrong so to speak just well you were in the wrong by being weak in nature yeah yeah i know i agree that's not what you're doing and you were weak on youtube where everybody could see you being weak i mean i don't think i was weak on youtube i would agree in the emails maybe i said stuff that i wouldn't say videos so you understood that i'm in a weak position at the time but my point is that you yeah you're so damn weak and you used used me yeah you felt well you fell into my trap yeah that's yeah that's life and uh she had promised that we would have children and actually she said that i would be like oh my god man like she said that she would never leave me and everything once the day when we met now that you in case anybody ever says that you were a sweet girl or something what would you say to that that they're done right but they fall for you yeah so you've been manipulating music people for ages or for like years well yeah for a long time [Music] it's just something i do it's just like automatic it's like safe for me i guess and then she just left it's it's unbearable to deal with like i've never felt this kind of pain in my life like there's literally nothing i can do i can do anymore a lot of the stuff is confusing and what who knows what's going on in her head really but uh at least a video of it doesn't help me really the purpose is kind of lost but still it's more so now to kind of maybe understand what was up with her more than anything i just really don't know what to do i've i've nothing left i have nothing left if nothing left in life like nothing at all it's not going to help me i'm just going to obsess over it and think why why did i give you all of my love and everything why did i try to heal you and why are you so cold it's like incredibly cold the coldest human i've ever met and i i cried yesterday and today and i cry once every few years and um i've never cried in my life two days in a row like i just don't do it a lot and i i just literally have nothing it's just it's just everything is black there's nothing anymore no just just tell me a little bit of what you told me we've been talking for ages now i you basically admitted that you're sociopath that you manipulate news people that you were jealous of a demon and you wanted to be her that's why you met me and that's why you tried to manipulate me to like you you were actually just using me is also true well can i add something yeah um so that was your fault i mean that's it i i don't know what to do anymore and luna messages me again three days ago saying i can see my son and i came to the netherlands to see him and she ignored me ever since for three four days it's just like it's all i don't i don't know how anybody can do that she later told me a lot of stuff and one of the things she said was that she wanted to be with me because i stood against everything that her family stood for for all of my beliefs just went completely against them so it was a way for her to rebel against the family to use me and this is why she wanted me to go to canada to have a fight with them basically and tell them what i think and to especially go against the dad because she was super angry at him to me you know one week after we met each other and a subscriber of mine was there who knows this also in new york she said that she's a sociopath who like doesn't feel anything and can give any love basically at the time i didn't care because for me there was nothing left in life because i lost my son and there was just nothing so i really didn't care i wanted to make it work with her and i i loved to take care of her and i i was attracted by the damage i i like i loved everything about her i i've never loved anybody so much in my life and she got really really mad when he went plan based and stopped being a man whatever whatever was going on there i've been for many breakups you know i'm in my 30s but uh i've never had it this bad i i i don't eat i sleep three four hours a day i'm on stress hormones non-stop it only gets worse like nothing is getting better one week after we met she called herself a sociopath and the reason i put sociopath in the title of the video is also because that's literally how she called herself and i wanted to to be with her because i was at a point in my life where i felt like i have nothing really to lose which really looking back was a mistake but that's literally how i felt it's just something i wanted to do um i just felt like it is right and uh it felt right because it was very manipulative and she was lying a lot and telling me all these things that she once have a family which she knew i wanted which was the manipulation and all of this stuff that i wanted but i also believe that she partly wanted it herself uh the thing with that is that uh only now at the end of september she found out that at least one of her ovaries has a cyst so that means that it doesn't produce the hormones as it should which is why her period was irregular which is why she's uh infertile and can get pregnant that may be temporary or not whatever but that was a thing and she was also getting mad that she can't get pregnant blah blah blah all i did was just give her love non-stop and treat her just the best way i could treat anybody just i i gave all of my love to her everything and it's like everything uh was taken away i mean i have nothing i have youtube which is which was a hobby which is yeah i have people watching people are gonna watch this video but i have no physical contact with anybody i have nothing i also wrote down a little note at the very end that uh she's super obsessed with youtube and instagram and just social media like really obsessed and also herself she i've never seen any human on earth ever take that many pictures of herself like it was it was really insane it's insane how many pictures she has of herself and yeah it's it's it's really crazy yeah so she was very obsessed with this whole thing and you know i was somebody who she was watching so she wanted to kind of be might have part in this kind of youtube life you know i don't know what essentially love is for a man what what it was but it was so many things yeah i have i have absolutely no problem in admitting that i you know i [ __ ] myself with this uh but yeah what can you do i did get more than enough money for the lawyers and everything i had gotten over a thousand euros on paypal and it wasn't enough obviously and i was kind of giving up and then somebody i don't know who this is uh uh thank you so much it was the biggest donation i've ever gotten somebody donated over 6 000 euros in bitcoin that was of course incredible which gave me a lot of hope so what i'm going to do now is [Music] start working with the lawyers