Nobody is Going to Save Daniel. @hiding in my room
16 November 2021 [link youtube]
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if you look at my life from an outside
perspective people might think wow daniel's life looks so amazing he just plays video games all day and doesn't have to work but then from my inside perspective i feel empty and hollow like my life is meaningless and i feel very unfulfilled in life in general i think there's a very high probability that after i finish making this video i'm going to play some of the brand new battlefield 2042 because that's pretty fun unlike studying they say life is a never-ending journey of learning but the problem is i've been living this way for such a long time 10 years plus now that the idea of doing anything challenging or difficult or even thinking about learning something new it's just so alien to me i look back at my 20s and i kind of realized how i completely wasted them when i say that i wasted it what i mean is i didn't really do anything during my 20s that benefits me now in my 30s i was wasting my time playing video games and chasing girls and going from meaningless relationship to meaningless relationship when i was in my 20s i never really imagined myself not being in my 20s anymore i could never really think of myself as a 30 year old in the same way when i was a kid i could never imagine myself not being a kid and then eventually becoming an adult and when i was in my 20s i never really worried about things like what are people going to think of me when i'm in my 30s and i've got nothing to show for it apart from memories of just chasing girls and playing video games that's not very impressive and when you meet someone and they ask you stuff like so what have you been doing in japan what have you been doing in the last few years and you don't really have anything impressive to tell them apart from oh i i got 6 000 playtime hours on rainbow six and i got five girlfriends in japan no one is impressed by that and they think you're a loser my looks are gonna fade soon and i'm not gonna look young anymore which was probably the only reason why i was able to get girls in the first place because let's face it it's not like girls likes me for my amazing personality or my huge amounts of money somewhere along the line probably in my early 20s nearing my mid-20s i kind of gave up on all ideas of working towards something i just kind of failed everything i failed at becoming fluent at japanese or korean i failed at trying to get into university i failed at trying to work a normal job and after failing everything it just kind of made me not want to try anymore look man i know what you're expecting me to say you're expecting me to do what all the other success merchants on youtube do and say hey look at this guy his life is a failure not like me like not like a successful person like myself oh and you yes you you can also learn the secrets to success if only you buy my ebook if only you sign up for my course you pay for my coaching or my encouragement that is not my perspective on this matter at all most of you are gonna fail if you're really honest with yourself about what it was you were trying to succeed in chapter by chapter in your life your life has probably been a succession of failures and looking ahead to the future whether your ambitions are great or small it is very likely that the future you have to look forward to is likewise going to be a succession of failures and i i think i think i'm different from most other people just in being really honest with myself and really honest with my audience really honest with my parents my friends anyone who listened to me i'm really honest in looking back at my life and seeing a succession of failures and remembering accurately what it was i was trying to accomplish oh it would be so easy for me to describe to you my experience living and working in thailand as a great success no it wasn't it was a failure it didn't just ended failure it was a failure at every stage all my whole experience you know professional and educational experience in cambodia at a job interview imagine how easy it would be for me to make that sound really impressive and interesting and successful it was a failure and if you think about what my aspirations were what i wanted to do during those years of my life and what i wanted to do in the next few years following after right was a total failure some of the failures in my life are easy to see from the outside and some of them are harder to detect my youtube channel is a failure my whole involvement in vegan activism is a failure and yes yes y'all can any of you remember that i actually enrolled in college to learn how to become a baker that ended in failure but there are two really important distinctions i want to draw your attention to one is this there's a huge huge difference between failing because of something that was lacking in yourself because of something you did wrong some passion some characteristic some capacity or ability that you didn't have there's a difference between that kind of failure and failing because of outside forces that are beyond your control those two things might not feel different from one another when you're actually living through it yourself when you're the one who chose to enroll in a particular college let's just say to learn how to be a vegan baker and then you find out once you've got there once you've already paid your money that that's gonna be impossible not due to any quality you're lacking not due to any confidence or characteristic that's lacking in you not because you don't have the will or the passion or the verve of the tenacity no no no no that's gonna be impossible due to factors outside of your control still you'll regret it still you'll hate yourself for it even if the only thing you have to hate yourself for is that you were so naive so jejune so trusting as to sign up for this program and hand over your money that type of failure failure due to external factors situations that are not under your control there's no way you can see it coming there's no way you can prepare yourself for it but here's what you can do you can choose to have ambitions you can choose to have projects you can choose to have objectives that are so meaningful that even if you fail when you look back at them when you look back on that series of chapters that succession of failures however you want to put it you feel wow yes that was a failure but i learned so much i benefited so much i grew so much by living through that failure now i just said to you a moment ago my youtube channel is a failure what would be success when you're making youtube videos talking about socrates and aristotle and thucydides ancient greece and ancient rome i don't know but i could keep on failing for the next five years i could keep on reading and doing research and making videos about obscure topics in the history of politics and philosophy i could i could just focus narrowly on aristotle for the next couple of years and even if i failed with every single video i uploaded i'd be able to look back on that and say well yeah that video only got 800 views but i learned so much i gained so much if i look back on videos i did just a few years ago i'm able to really feel how much i've learned because i'm able to watch that video think oh if i were to make a video on that topic today it would be so much different because of the reading i've done or just because of the way in which my own perspective has matured it's the easiest thing in the world for a real estate agency to recruit someone by just showing them photographs of their most successful employees they can they can hand it a folder to you say oh look this is dave after just two years working here he earned over a million dollars in bonuses and that and that all may be true but can you ask them yet do you have another folder for all the losers who worked here for years their lives for decades and never made a million bucks do you have a folder for all the people who maybe only worked here for six months or a year and they were just terrible at the job and couldn't hack it and then had to leave and find a new a new career path do you have some way of quantifying the extent and depth of failure and if all you're motivated by is money or if all you're motivated by is sex or the strange fleeting kind of enjoyment that comes from playing video games if this doesn't work out if it fails when you look back at what you've done what is that that you're gonna feel you've really learned in what way will you be able to say that this succession of failures has made you a better person y'all already know what it is no pain no paper head pulling cable with no mess get getting how you kneel i don't live at all but [ __ ] say i can't do it i'm doing that don't tell your mama now i'm coming through that get my [ __ ] money you already know what it is crunchy [ __ ] black kill yourself slap the cash [ __ ] slap the [ __ ] cat killer kill black red y'all pimp still in the [ __ ] building lift it black i see you baby get out you little [ __ ] [Music] that's for the kids [ __ ] i ain't doing all this [ __ ] for nothing i ain't doing all this [ __ ] but nothing for my [ __ ] kids [ __ ] get out of here [ __ ] you suck dick for free [ __ ] you [ __ ] for free get out of here and ain't [ __ ] shaking with me i ain't [ __ ] shaking you're gonna hear that song too ain't [ __ ] shaking it is what it is it went out but it still is what it is get out you live or don't live at all you on top of it you wanna talk about big face i see you baby pretty ricky [Music] [Music] i'm still trying to get my child
perspective people might think wow daniel's life looks so amazing he just plays video games all day and doesn't have to work but then from my inside perspective i feel empty and hollow like my life is meaningless and i feel very unfulfilled in life in general i think there's a very high probability that after i finish making this video i'm going to play some of the brand new battlefield 2042 because that's pretty fun unlike studying they say life is a never-ending journey of learning but the problem is i've been living this way for such a long time 10 years plus now that the idea of doing anything challenging or difficult or even thinking about learning something new it's just so alien to me i look back at my 20s and i kind of realized how i completely wasted them when i say that i wasted it what i mean is i didn't really do anything during my 20s that benefits me now in my 30s i was wasting my time playing video games and chasing girls and going from meaningless relationship to meaningless relationship when i was in my 20s i never really imagined myself not being in my 20s anymore i could never really think of myself as a 30 year old in the same way when i was a kid i could never imagine myself not being a kid and then eventually becoming an adult and when i was in my 20s i never really worried about things like what are people going to think of me when i'm in my 30s and i've got nothing to show for it apart from memories of just chasing girls and playing video games that's not very impressive and when you meet someone and they ask you stuff like so what have you been doing in japan what have you been doing in the last few years and you don't really have anything impressive to tell them apart from oh i i got 6 000 playtime hours on rainbow six and i got five girlfriends in japan no one is impressed by that and they think you're a loser my looks are gonna fade soon and i'm not gonna look young anymore which was probably the only reason why i was able to get girls in the first place because let's face it it's not like girls likes me for my amazing personality or my huge amounts of money somewhere along the line probably in my early 20s nearing my mid-20s i kind of gave up on all ideas of working towards something i just kind of failed everything i failed at becoming fluent at japanese or korean i failed at trying to get into university i failed at trying to work a normal job and after failing everything it just kind of made me not want to try anymore look man i know what you're expecting me to say you're expecting me to do what all the other success merchants on youtube do and say hey look at this guy his life is a failure not like me like not like a successful person like myself oh and you yes you you can also learn the secrets to success if only you buy my ebook if only you sign up for my course you pay for my coaching or my encouragement that is not my perspective on this matter at all most of you are gonna fail if you're really honest with yourself about what it was you were trying to succeed in chapter by chapter in your life your life has probably been a succession of failures and looking ahead to the future whether your ambitions are great or small it is very likely that the future you have to look forward to is likewise going to be a succession of failures and i i think i think i'm different from most other people just in being really honest with myself and really honest with my audience really honest with my parents my friends anyone who listened to me i'm really honest in looking back at my life and seeing a succession of failures and remembering accurately what it was i was trying to accomplish oh it would be so easy for me to describe to you my experience living and working in thailand as a great success no it wasn't it was a failure it didn't just ended failure it was a failure at every stage all my whole experience you know professional and educational experience in cambodia at a job interview imagine how easy it would be for me to make that sound really impressive and interesting and successful it was a failure and if you think about what my aspirations were what i wanted to do during those years of my life and what i wanted to do in the next few years following after right was a total failure some of the failures in my life are easy to see from the outside and some of them are harder to detect my youtube channel is a failure my whole involvement in vegan activism is a failure and yes yes y'all can any of you remember that i actually enrolled in college to learn how to become a baker that ended in failure but there are two really important distinctions i want to draw your attention to one is this there's a huge huge difference between failing because of something that was lacking in yourself because of something you did wrong some passion some characteristic some capacity or ability that you didn't have there's a difference between that kind of failure and failing because of outside forces that are beyond your control those two things might not feel different from one another when you're actually living through it yourself when you're the one who chose to enroll in a particular college let's just say to learn how to be a vegan baker and then you find out once you've got there once you've already paid your money that that's gonna be impossible not due to any quality you're lacking not due to any confidence or characteristic that's lacking in you not because you don't have the will or the passion or the verve of the tenacity no no no no that's gonna be impossible due to factors outside of your control still you'll regret it still you'll hate yourself for it even if the only thing you have to hate yourself for is that you were so naive so jejune so trusting as to sign up for this program and hand over your money that type of failure failure due to external factors situations that are not under your control there's no way you can see it coming there's no way you can prepare yourself for it but here's what you can do you can choose to have ambitions you can choose to have projects you can choose to have objectives that are so meaningful that even if you fail when you look back at them when you look back on that series of chapters that succession of failures however you want to put it you feel wow yes that was a failure but i learned so much i benefited so much i grew so much by living through that failure now i just said to you a moment ago my youtube channel is a failure what would be success when you're making youtube videos talking about socrates and aristotle and thucydides ancient greece and ancient rome i don't know but i could keep on failing for the next five years i could keep on reading and doing research and making videos about obscure topics in the history of politics and philosophy i could i could just focus narrowly on aristotle for the next couple of years and even if i failed with every single video i uploaded i'd be able to look back on that and say well yeah that video only got 800 views but i learned so much i gained so much if i look back on videos i did just a few years ago i'm able to really feel how much i've learned because i'm able to watch that video think oh if i were to make a video on that topic today it would be so much different because of the reading i've done or just because of the way in which my own perspective has matured it's the easiest thing in the world for a real estate agency to recruit someone by just showing them photographs of their most successful employees they can they can hand it a folder to you say oh look this is dave after just two years working here he earned over a million dollars in bonuses and that and that all may be true but can you ask them yet do you have another folder for all the losers who worked here for years their lives for decades and never made a million bucks do you have a folder for all the people who maybe only worked here for six months or a year and they were just terrible at the job and couldn't hack it and then had to leave and find a new a new career path do you have some way of quantifying the extent and depth of failure and if all you're motivated by is money or if all you're motivated by is sex or the strange fleeting kind of enjoyment that comes from playing video games if this doesn't work out if it fails when you look back at what you've done what is that that you're gonna feel you've really learned in what way will you be able to say that this succession of failures has made you a better person y'all already know what it is no pain no paper head pulling cable with no mess get getting how you kneel i don't live at all but [ __ ] say i can't do it i'm doing that don't tell your mama now i'm coming through that get my [ __ ] money you already know what it is crunchy [ __ ] black kill yourself slap the cash [ __ ] slap the [ __ ] cat killer kill black red y'all pimp still in the [ __ ] building lift it black i see you baby get out you little [ __ ] [Music] that's for the kids [ __ ] i ain't doing all this [ __ ] for nothing i ain't doing all this [ __ ] but nothing for my [ __ ] kids [ __ ] get out of here [ __ ] you suck dick for free [ __ ] you [ __ ] for free get out of here and ain't [ __ ] shaking with me i ain't [ __ ] shaking you're gonna hear that song too ain't [ __ ] shaking it is what it is it went out but it still is what it is get out you live or don't live at all you on top of it you wanna talk about big face i see you baby pretty ricky [Music] [Music] i'm still trying to get my child