Vegan Gains: Penis Size, Ego & Intellect.

ladies and gentlemen there was a time
when people made youtube videos with the reckless pretension that they were trying to save the world and i miss those days i really do i miss those days when it was considered shocking and insulting to say that someone was just making youtube videos for money can anyone else remember that how dare you how dare you say i'm just doing this for money i'm trying to change the world and you know as cynical and saddening a figure as vegan gains now is can you remember can you remember a time when he made youtube videos criticizing the religion of islam when he made deadpan serious videos criticizing islam and propounding atheism and can you remember when he deleted those videos you know when he took them down to avoid being censored or suppressed by youtube when he when he decided to throw all of his you know time and effort and energy into doing completely idiotic video game commentary and you know quote you know debates so on and so forth you know um you know when you're looking at the career the meteoric and influential career of vegan gains you're looking at a phenomenon that partly charts the meteoric rise and fall of the vegan movement itself say 2014 to 2021 and you're also looking at a phenomenon that charts the rise and fall of youtube right like a lot of the distinctive features of vegan gains channel in the early popular period of his career those were also the features of of youtube as a as a whole platform right and how how did it come tumbling down so i got to disclose my bias here guys i'm happy to happy to talk to anyone in the audience vegan gains he and i knew each other we spoke personally for a couple of years um he's now threatened everyone with a cage match who's ever criticized them except me he's threatened everyone with lawsuits including me he's never followed through even though we're both canadian citizens we're both resident in canada um he's resorted to the lowest order of bullying tactics that he would criticize as immoral in others but without hesitation he engages in those things himself the same thing so give you a very easily palpable example we have seen him just in the last few months harshly criticizing another channel for claiming to be vegan while buying meat in order to feed it to her pet dog vegan gains himself did this it's about four years ago now i remember where we were when i made videos responsible and richard was still friends with then he still talked to me about my perspective on that it's like what do you want me to tell you richard you know paying someone else to kill an animal so you can feed it to your dog as opposed to paying them to kill an animal to feed it to yourself you know it's no big ethical difference here guys you know like oh well uh i run a factory that kills cows and makes their skin into leather but i use it to provide shelter for the homeless like like what you make leather tents or something guess what you're still killing cows there were still more ethical ways it's ridiculous you know sorry but that's you know it's really beyond hypocrisy hypocrisy is just failing to practice what you preach and it's going to sound weird guys there are a lot of reasons to be a hypocrite there are a lot of legitimate reasons to be a hypocrite i have a child i'm divorced i have a kid i might make a video one day encouraging you to sign up and join the army and fight in some more and i'd say look i can't do it i have other responsibilities i'm too old or whatever it is i'm raising a kid i can't do it but i'm going to encourage you to start happening there there are reasons to be a hypocrite well richard is doing as much worse than hypocrisy he's engaging in the moral condemnation of someone for a sin for an action an unethical act or deed that he is amply guilty of himself and there's no by the way in those videos i had to sit through them there is not one moment of self-reflection there is not one moment in which he falters and says you know what a couple years ago when he was already a vegan activist back when he was at the height of his fame when he had more than 10 times as many viewers per month as he has now when he was having millions of years but they actually he made the same mistake he could have said that he made this mistake in the past and he regretted it and he couldn't even even talk through like sincerely how he convinced himself that it was morally acceptable to buy meat if he was feeding it to his dog and maybe he would have even mentioned people like me i was a friend of his at the time i was criticized maybe he would mention that people like me influenced him to change mine nope there's absolutely no humility there's no reflection so you say this is this is several steps beyond hypocrisy for him to uh uh condemn others those way all right guys i'm happy to respond to your your comments some of you guys i know i know there are people where you know vegan gains change their whole lives you know i know there are people who discovered my channel and who became vegan and took on a new direction and did all kinds of things because of vegan gains influence in their life but you know what can i tell you that doesn't mean he's a good channel it doesn't mean he's a good creator it doesn't mean he's someone you should respect or or listen to i said this years ago i haven't talked about it i haven't talked about this for years but you know you can change your life because you had a car crash i think my example is close to my experience you can change your life because you see a car crash on the side of the road you're not involved but you stop and you look at it you think i got to change my life you know what are you gonna do are you gonna buy you know a scale model of that car crash and put it on an altar and worship it are you gonna pray to it you know don't respect the car crash carl i changed my life because of this car crash right well you know v you may have changed your life because of vegan gains you may have changed your life for the better don't respect vegan gains for that reason don't uh don't look up to them anyway sorry i was i was digressing just to say um you know that that i do have this history with richard that he and i were friends uh for a couple of years he and i did talk and then when he decided he hated me you guys some of you have seen this some of you remember it some of you could go back and see my videos that have some screenshots you know ironically one of the main ways he insulted me was about the size of my penis so he made all these comments on the internet you guys again i have screenshots of like a couple of them i didn't put together a collection but he was being so morally superior to me because i would talk about the size of my penis on the internet and by the way if you've seen the videos where i'm talking about it i am not ashamed of those videos at all they're talking about it in a meaningful nuanced way as part of my life so just briefly some of you guys are here for the first time so someone just asked me the audience uh shout out to the one and only welcome welcome to the crowd who asks are you vegetarian vegan armed with so i have been vegan for more than 10 years now yeah this is no 2021 i've been so i've been vegan for a very long time it'd take me a while to figure out when i became vegan to be honest with you because before i was vegan i was strictly vegetarian which was like 95 vegan before i was vegan i was like uh i was a vegan but who would eat pasta that had parmesan cheese in it there was like a you know i would ignore dairy in kind of trace amounts in my diet that way but i i did i didn't buy cheese or i didn't buy cow milk this kind of thing so i even then sir the exception was parmesan cheese when i was with my ex-girlfriend she she really liked parmesan cheese so i have to admit that too but anyway i'll just say the reason why it's hard to remember is that so like starting the year 2000 i was strictly vegetarian and then at one point i graduated to being 100 vegan but before that was 95 anyway sorry i'm digressing but you know welcome to the welcome to the crowd i was saying oh right penis size i was saying something really meaningful before that penis sucks right so you know when i made videos talking about this i wasn't boasting i wasn't insulting richard or anyone else i wasn't i'm not insulting someone else's sexuality and i'm not saying my sexuality is so great which is i mean richard is such a such a shallow person that's how we respond oh gee richard why do you feel threatened by this richard had already talked about his penis size at the time and he went on to talk about it a lot more and then he went on to try to monetize it so in case you didn't know one of the differences is now richard has started and only fans richard has started making uh you know pornography of himself showing himself masturbating and selling on camera now look guys i can imagine a parallel universe where i had no better option than to do i can imagine you know i've talked about that with uh melissa so melissa we've been together for more than four years now for something like four and a half years but you know sometimes i talk about how my whole life could have been different if i if i'd chosen one of the suitors one of the women who were pursuing me that time other than melissa you know some of the things are are relatively shallow and minor well so they're actually to be honest this is neither shallow tomorrow but you know like you know i used to do a lot of videos talking about game of thrones the tv show and the books you know the game of thrones george r martin books and i can imagine if i'd been with one of those other women i might have made more videos in that way if i'd been with one of the other women i could imagine my channel become more like a history channel i can just imagine it kind of going in different directions somewhat because of the woman i i'd chosen but yes i can absolutely imagine where partly due to poverty yeah poverty and hopelessness and lack of any better alternative because the woman i can totally imagine that i would have ended up with only fans but unlike richard i would not be on an ego trip about it i wouldn't be on this crazy future but anyway yeah he used to used to insult me about this and you know guess what the difference is now richard just like the thing with buying dead animals to feed your pet dog and justifying it as vegan it's beyond hypocrisy well guess what richard now the difference is you boast about the size of your penis and we know you have nothing to boast about like we know that your penis is just a normal size for a man of six foot three it's not impressive if you haven't googled it yet you can google it right now and you can see he has a an average sized penis for a man of six foot three and it's also ugly and misshapen i'm just saying is not he is never he would never be you know cast in a porn movie and if you look at the websites that are dedicated to frankly men who appreciate that kind of porn i've seen him reviewed where it's a bunch of gay guys sitting around talking about how disappointed they are okay richard so you know you tried to humiliate me and you tried to play all these games ultimately come down to shaming someone for daring to talk about this stuff and sorry i gotta say this it's worth explaining when i talked about this it's to reflect on what i've been through in my life okay and you know yeah the penis size issue and owning condoms uh get finding condoms that fit you yeah it really screwed up my life at different stages when i was when i was first losing my virginity when i was first having sex and you're trying to use the comics you're a teenage kid and even though like i didn't grow up in a christian household but still my parents were very screwed up and repressed about sex they were in a non-christian way they were really messed up about it they were really terrified of like teen pregnancy and abortions they were all messed up they're left-wing but they were all screwed up with stuff they couldn't talk about it but i think most people they don't even nobody even thinks to talk to a teenage kid about what to do if the condom doesn't fit well guess what if you are wearing a condom that's too small for you it basically creates sexual dysfunction like you can't really have an erection you can't enjoy sex so this huge impact in my life and it didn't occur to me so at that time so again this i'm letting you guys know this is why i talked about it when richard comes out to talk about the size of his penis he's doing it to insult and humiliate others he's doing it to boast about how superior he is to you and then he's doing it to make money out of only fans again to promote his fame at the same time he's claiming he's one day gonna stand for office he's gonna stand in elections and be erected be erected prime minister of canada good one he's supposedly going to be in elections on the strength of his erections you know um it's it's ridiculous and you know anyone can say i mean she's you know if look if i'm going to do only fans you think i'm good like you know you've got a uh under promise over deliver you know if i were just saying if i'm gonna go into porn if i'm gonna do only fans i'm gonna be a creative filmmaker i'm gonna try to do something where you respect me for something other than my body like wow you know that guy really puts some work i'm just saying i wouldn't be this lazy self-indulgent who just films himself masturbating in the bathroom or something you know i think he ought to be ashamed of himself as a filmmaker that way too so within pornography there's good pornography and bad photography you can come up with scenarios that are really psychologically interesting you can film things you can really produce something nobody else is producing that you know i think there's a lot of creative positive stuff you can do in porn i have seen i think i've seen one pornographic film ever that tried to make a political point i know there are others i remember reading a newspaper article this isn't the normal newspaper i was talking about political porn i never and yeah i had a friend so i don't want to digress i had a friend in toronto she was black and she worked in a porn shop a shop that sold pornography and also dildos and things but it was a feminist porn shop and i remember talking to her about that so what about the porn films that are trying to make a point that somehow and we was interested in conversation i don't just be honest i don't even put the time into watching them like i don't want to spend three hours i don't want to spend one hour watching this stuff just you know i'm not afraid of it but i don't really want to spend the time uh looking into that further but you know sure whether you're passionate about veganism or you're passionate about yeah sure you're passionate about religion that's a great time oh that'd be a great topic so melissa is mentioning the famous porn star mia khalifa if you want to do porn that criticizes religion in general or you know judaism christianity islam i could make quick hardcore porn films that were you know partly satirizing and partly criticizing religious sure sorry now now i'm getting into it but like you know look so i remember i've mentioned this before back when i was a kid i once read a magazine article that was interviewing an elderly african-american pimp this is a black guy in america who'd been part of the pimping scene back when pimping was really pimping before the internet before anything you know old school pimp old school fur coat walking cane era pink pimp you know what i mean and the the interviewer the interviewer asked him a couple of really broad questions that he had emotionally significant answers to i remember the interviewer asked him like you know all these pimps talk about the women in their lives talk about the prostitutes as if they mean nothing did you ever fall in love with one of your hoes and he said back so again this is this is in prince i know it's time for us he said man i fell in love with every single one of my hoes i loved all of them i love them to bits and what and when i when they're not around i miss them and when one of them walked away and started working with another i always wondered why and it would always eat at me you know he's talking about and he's really talking about how he loves these women i know he wants to spend his life with them and he wishes they were still around stuff yeah i think you know a couple of them are but like you know the point is most of them you know he has the sense of having lovely having this really you know emotionally sincere thing anyway and um i think that the interviewer just asked some kind of very general question about the competition about about other men and he said man you know that's why you've got to have love in the game so this is this is a memory from like 40 years ago or 35 years ago or something so i'm only 42. but it was a memory from a long time ago whenever i read this but you know so this is not exact phrasing but um he said man that's that's why you've got to have like a love connection with these with these women he said there's always somebody more handsome than you there's always somebody with more money than you there's always somebody with a bigger dick than you that can take your hose away like unless you've got love for them and they've gotta love you unless there's love in the game unless that's the wow you know but of course it's true like of course it is true like richard should have known before he did this right like dude you are not going to be the man on only fans with the largest penis like that is just that is just not gonna happen nobody is going to gasp in amazement when you finally reveal this penis that you have been boasting about that you have been building up expectations over so long what he did right and then it's like the penis finally comes out saying you know like what what he could have done is to impress people and say he could have come out and said hey look he doesn't have the biggest penis and of course he's not the best in bed i mean of course come on the guy the guy talks openly about his his sexual problems he's obviously a very very messed up disabled person in many ways he talks a lot about his mental disability he talks a lot about his very strange sexual activities and what he can cope with and what he can't the way in which he's kind of just barely heterosexual and stuff like you know okay you know but he could have come out and said that he's a creative artist and a filmmaker and he's really going to do something other people can't do of course he also could have you know put the emphasis on the fact that he works out and this way like like he's going to lift weights nude or something like it's going to be about his physique or something yeah but sure there are a lot of different ways to approach it there are ways to approach it that are that are humble you know now look this is my point when i made videos talking about my penis size that richard hated me for intensely and for like two years he was engaged in a harassment campaign against me and saying all this insulting stuff to me including by email said to me directly and public youtube comments you know saying all this stuff about the size of my penis you know like dude when i came out and talked about it it was humble because i'm talking about the way in which it my life up i'm talking about what it's like to be a teenage man who who at that time i grew up it's like the peak of the aids hysteria i'm losing my virginity with this girl i'm not really that attracted to which is how it is for a lot of us when you're young you don't really know what you like or you don't maybe you don't admit to yourself what you like like there are guys who like fat women it takes them a long time to admit it you know whatever but you know my situation with that girl i've mentioned this before but really quick you know uh i was at a party where i all eyes were on me if you tell me why i was like i went at this party i was the most handsome guy like you know this which is whatever i know sorry i'm just saying i don't know if there were i don't know where they're 20 guys 30 it's not a huge party but like all eyes were on me all the women were at me at this party really i'm not this is not every party i go to this particular party and most of guys didn't have confidence dancing and they were playing like 1960s soul music so that was the time when uh i'm sorry i'm forgetting the name there's a really crappy filmmaker who makes these violent movies quentin tarantino okay so there were movies though from quentin tarantino and that brought back an interest in some 1960s and 1970s kind of soul funk music and i could really dance to that and most of the guys were there couldn't like i don't know i don't know if maybe they could dance i don't know what they could dance to maybe they could dance to rock and roll hair metal or something i don't know right but i really i could really dance the funk and soul at that time so i'm whatever i'm taller and i'm better looking all these women are at me and the chick i wanted the girl i wanted was there like the best friend of the girl who got me there was this girl who really wanted me one and she was like saying to the girls like no no no none of you can touch him and she wanted to me today she wanted for me that night she wanted about me then she was trying to take me out and do me like seriously and i'm sorry i was still a virgin i was like i'm not you know what i mean i'm not looking to have sex with a complete stranger i'm at a party you know what i mean i'm not you know it's not what i'm on the page for anyway eventually she ended up being the woman who took my virginity so yeah what i'm saying is i'm a victim feels sorry for me anyway but you know i wasn't attracted to her i'm not i'm not saying she was ugly human you know she was totally good whatever but that's not how human attraction works her friend who also was shorter than her i've always i've always okay look all kinds of women are beautiful but like in terms of what's my type i'm like six foot three in the morning i'm six foot two by by sundown but like normally i i do not want to be with a woman who's also six feet tall i if you're out there ladies i'll make an exception yeah i mean you know what i mean you got to be open-minded and any of these preferences of course it can be overcome just because someone is intelligent just because you have something in common with them just because you like having a conversation with but like i remember her friend was shorter than her and was more feminine than her and that was really what i responded to to be honest sorry her friend looked more like my current girlfriend melissa just just being real you know some of the other features which now after after years i can recognize like also um i'm not i'm not saying i like an enormous nose on a woman but i do like a certain kind of like i don't i don't like a woman to have like a tiny nose you know what i mean melissa nobody says melissa has a big nose but she has you know like a a significant nose yeah yeah i do think that's part of why i respond to melissa anyway i do like very feminine women anyway sorry whatever this is this that the question with the my point is like you are a teenage dude and you have been loaded up like you're a virgin and like whatever i was the girl i was having sex with how many men she had sex with before me she wasn't the virgin i forget she had two or three but it's like oh no no you gotta use uh you gotta use a condom every time right and guess what if the condom is too small if the cotton doesn't fit you like you've got all these problems like it's impossible for you to have sex it's impossible for you to enjoy sex and the the biggest trip of all was this like nobody talked me through this the way marketing worked at the time like okay so i buy a regular size condom it doesn't work so i go back and i buy trojan magnum and there was another brand that had extra large in the in the branding right and that's still not big enough that's still not working and i could tell it was only slightly bigger right well of course this is the way this is 21st century marketing like oh like they want guys to feel like they're huge when selling them a condom that's like 10 bigger or something and so i went through this whole thing was a huge i'm telling you guys about it now but i had made videos talking about that like dude this really screws people up for life it definitely i mean for like five years it screwed up my life like what do you want to say like 16 17 18 19 20 yes easily easily five years this screwed up my life right and you know like it's hard to recognize the problem and then once you recognize the problem what the you gonna do about it and let's just say again there's all this like guilt trip like oh you know the type of men who make up an excuse to not use condoms with a woman that's a terrible man like you should feel guilty there was this whole cultural discourse about how everyone should use a condom every time like even if you're married there's all this about using a condom all the time being like crucial to you know whatever male morality and not not being an abuser or an exploiter of women there was like absolutely no recognition that there's a significant percentage of the male population who either cannot have sex with a condom at all or cannot enjoy it right now just mention the biggest size of condom made in america which is not easy to get not every side because it's like the extra extra large condom by the american standards that i can use and it's tight on me but like if i couldn't get that condom there would be no condom on earth i could use in my experience right so real really briefly so i had this whole trauma with this as a teenager and then i move from canada to asia and i go through it all over again and it's completely surreal so i'm with a different girlfriend with my blonde girlfriend but it's completely cereal because for one thing what they call an extra large condom in japan and like someone's like extra actually i remember this one japanese brand it was like big boy extra extra large well guess what a japanese extra-large condom is smaller than a canadian normal condom like and i'm with my girlfriend who is an about it my girlfriend was such a to me about this i'm sorry i mean it was a horrible relationship and the sex was terrible too it was terrible she was gorgeous she was very attracted to me like you know there are other reasons why she was gorgeous and she had a good sense of humor i really appreciated laughing with her there were positive things about her but holy i go through all this trauma again and i told her at that time like i had detachments where i was like look this is something i went through as a teenager when i was first discovering sex and like it is still up my life you now like i'm not cool with this i'm not over this like i'm not into you know like oh she made my so look i'm just saying when i came out to talk about this issue i was not trying to promote and only fans i was not trying to get laid i was not trying to impress you i was not trying to humiliate richard right like i'm not trying to bring vegan gains his channel down or anyone else's channel down you know what i mean like i'm sorry there were women hey guys i see your comments oh you know but like it's a good good suggestion somebody says try saran wrap [Laughter] it's a good way to get someone pregnant bro but you know um like i'm not trying to bring someone down now look there are all kinds of channels from from women there are women who talk about how being flat-chested changed their lives how having very small breasts or no breasts like good talk about it share your experience be analytical you know and and by the way if they want to do only fans too fine there's tons of guys who who like or prefer small breasts doing according to richard he does also richard prefers uh flat-chested small restaurant according to him um again his actual preference is really weird but you know i i would never denigrate someone saying like oh you're feeling sorry for yourself because you have a small brass blah blah okay but guess what there are also women who have youtube channels talking about how having enormous breasts screwed up their life and it's real i had one female friend okay i had several female friends who had enormous press growing up one of them became a stripper i think i think briefly like i don't know if she was tripping for one year or two years i i we we lost it and yeah she was trying to sleep with me and there was all this weird she quote unquote fell in love with me and there was all this benefit and i didn't want her you know sorry okay they're all kinds of women who are attractive or gorgeous and i don't want them and women feel the same way about men you know what i mean it's not like women want every attractive man or every gorgeous man i'm sorry but this is welcome to planet earth you know what i mean anyway but yeah i remember but oh i had one female friend and she started having big breasts at 13. and i remember her talking about it like all of a sudden there were all these sports she can't play anymore like she just physically can't play the sport she talked about she couldn't play volleyball anymore she couldn't put her hands together to do the the volleyball motion couldn't and she could before sports didn't hold a lot of bumping around she couldn't run track and field she couldn't really sprint like you know she could but like she was she was really big i forget she was like e cup or double even some women are really big and it's really like you know it really limits their ability to play sports for example now i know oh sure you can be salty there are women like oh yeah your life is so hard because all these guys want to sleep with you when you can't play volleyball no listen be oblique be willing to listen to talk people talking about their suffering and their experience in life right no it's up for her she had the experience at age 13 of fully grown men trying to sleep with her like adult men trying to sleep with her and some of those men knew that she was 13 and some of them didn't some of them because of her appearance because of her body because she'd already been through puberty they assumed she was 18 or something like that i assumed she was old there was okay that was a huge formative part of her life that screwed her up that are these kinds of impact you know but like yes you have to be willing to listen to that you have to be willing to talk about that and there are miseries when you're 13 having enormous breasts and there are miseries when you're 45 and everything starts sagging and everything and you know and yes you know yeah it does matter it does matter to people that they wanted to be a track and field athlete you know maybe she wanted to throw the javelin whatever it is she had me you know whatever in her case i'm okay i guess i knew the specific sports she was involved in that she wanted to play that she had to kind of stop playing couldn't get ahead you know well look maybe that's shallow but that mattered to her to some people playing football matters a lot to some people playing baseball and sure you have this physical development you can't control now you can't play sports anymore now all these guys are are trying to sleep with you and whatever people are paying for your only fans or paying attention to you on instagram all of a sudden the attention you get on instagram it's real it's real and it's worth talking about and like in the same sense that the problems and struggles you know women have whether they are flat chested or big breasted are worth talking about and worth taking seriously either way the problems men have who have an especially small penis and especially large penis they're also worth talking about like god sorry we're all a bunch of monkeys we're all a product of we're all a product of evolution we are all equally monkeys okay it's absolutely nothing racist you know uh implied by that so you know yeah this was illustrating the point that in the same way that vegan gains it's not just hypocrisy so guys i am going to reply to your comments but he will attack people for things he will denigrate people for things that he is guilty of himself and he will set up the criteria to denigrate others to judge others to condemn others morally criteria that he will never reply to himself that he won't apply to himself fairly also now i think the ultimate guys i'm happy to hear what you have to say with us i think the ultimate you know example of this has got to be his position on um mind altering drugs right to my knowledge richard vegan gains is now on antidepressants he's now taking psychomats this is my own merch by the way this is a mirror mode so there you go um shout out to my merch company i um one of these costs the same amount as one of the t-shirts you know more within more or less and i got but the t-shirts are great but one of the this this'll last a lifetime this thing is it's solid steel eh so if you hate it you're stuck with it for a lifetime but yeah the t-shirt will not last a lifetime is my is my prediction so if you want to do if you want to merge on the other hand if you're trying to strike up conversations with people at the gym you know we've got a lot of quality comments here quote my teacher a few years ago was 4 foot 10 with a huge ass god damn pictures or it never happened remember people photos are never happened that one in a style why did people stop saying that maybe it's because people have pictures oh okay maybe it got too easy to send pictures you know yeah um i am just saying it's not it's not a fit uh the tallest the tallest woman i ever got with was actually the woman with with huge breasts who became a stripper i forget how tall she would probably maybe that's part of why i wasn't why i wasn't attracted to her but one of the things i remember was that you know my neck hurt kissing like the thing you do with your neck is i hope this is useful information for you but yeah it's definitely a different bunch of different bunch of neck motions to kiss someone who's who's really tall i you know i don't know it's an issue could be an issue for any combination of genders maybe gay men also think about that if you're gay i think you want to be with someone the same height so you can share wardrobe you know what i mean so like if i were gay i'd want someone who's the same height as me same shoe size i think well now i got twice as many shoes no don't act like i'm the first person to have thought all right just reading to your reading through your comments guys so audrey asks quote i'm so lost here who has the smaller penis do you and vegan gains have only fans haven't watched vegan channels much in years and this notification popped open every moment so i hope you're still here audrey welcome to the channel um so how much do i want to recap vegan gains does have an only fans you can now with a mere google search uh figure out you can you can see everything there is to see um and he does look this comes back to probably the most important you know problem with vegan against he puts very little effort into it he doesn't have a highly artistic i mean yes some people do he's not really acting as a filmmaker only fans but you can watch his lazy zero effort nude and pornographic uh content not only fans so i do not but i've been willing to i on my own channel have been willing to talk about my own penis size and the problems that's created for me in my life not in order to humiliate or denigrate others and it may be significant that richard responded to that challenge as if it were somehow a challenge to him as if it were uh denigrating him and he lashed out at me about it and insulted me about it for years he insulted me about it even though he himself was amply guilty of the same so-called sin he really does you know in a kind of noxious way um boasts about his penis size so loopy dark says that he he uh he or she says i thought vegan gaines was married correct and his wife also has and only fans um see if i can get it for you i assume i can share a link to and only fans here um [Music] so you know look a lot of people i mean i remember making a video when they first got married you know i remember i remember you know he and i used to talk about you know we were friends to some extent um look i think it's kind of a good segue for me earlier apropos of nothing i mentioned how my own youtube channel might have been very different if i'd married another woman or fall in love with if i'd chosen another woman from once you were talking to me and yes i can imagine that i would have gone into only fans that would have gone into doing porn partly out of desperation and hopelessness and lack of better uh alternatives and then we got the fact that hey actually when you think about it only fans could be politically interesting it could be a creative challenge as a filmmaker then it started to seem way more appealing you know um [Music] why did richard choose this particular woman and why did he stay with her obviously she is objectively unattractive um you know and i totally get that subjectively you can find a woman beautiful and you can have a meaningful life with her and it can be very it can be wonderfully rewarding to be in a relationship with a woman who is unattractive or even ugly i'm not i'm not against that i'm not opposed to that i'm not saying everyone has to be shallow all the time i am saying that everyone has to be shallow sometimes some of the time okay once in a while we all got to be shallow um you know i think the most important thing here is that vegan gains was looking for someone who would never challenge him morally in any way someone who would never challenge even his work ethic right the guy is so lazy he's so self-indulgent he sleeps in until one in the afternoon he mopes around in his apartment in his um bathrobe he plays video games he complains about video games he complains with he's just this really dark self-pitying character now you could imagine he might be with a woman who who loved him and who loved his youtube channel but he said to him look richard i remember the level of effort you put into your videos five years ago and you're not doing it now we're like look richard i know you're capable of waking up in the morning and you know maybe treating me better than this like really being alert and sharp and positive and not being mopey and self-intelligent like look richard i know you know i know you're capable of achieving a higher standard creatively intellectually you know he could be with a woman who watches his videos and we've got to come back to this too this is the big one is the idea of his channel being quote unquote science education you know he could be with a woman who says look richard you made that video talking about this scientifically but i know you didn't really do the kind of research that you used to do you know i know you didn't really back this up by doing a lot of reading i know you've never read a book on this topic that you you know you just made a video about you know he could be with a woman who asked him hard questions but above all else you know he could be with a woman who is not a video game addict and who questions or challenges his playing video games for long hours now you you may or may not know the sad story of richard trying to transition from being a youtuber to being a video game live streamer i have an email he sent to me directly where he said that he was going to become rich like ninja ninja is the name of a famous video game competitor that he was going to become incredibly wealthy playing video games on twitch i think that was shortly before he tried to become rich by showing his penis on only fans but it didn't happen and in case you didn't know i mean he's gone through a series of these kind of manic episodes where he's a mania for achieving success in a certain way not only did he fail to ever have a popular youtube channel or streaming channel on twitch for video games but promptly enough he was banned he banned forever from twitch and you know why and i was joking with melissa this before i mentioned oh he's been banned from twitch and melissa asked me why what it's like is there any question why he got different does anyone need to know why he got banned from twitch you know twitch the standards for for um censorship are much much stricter right so obviously the sen the same things that got him banned from uh twitter like i think he has he been banned from facebook does he have facebook again now uh but to my knowledge so correctly if i'm wrong maybe someone else's i believe he's been banned from instagram he's definitely been banned from twitter banned from twitch and now for the second time banned from youtube and there's just a question of whether or not youtube will give him another chance or allow him back you know so on and so forth you know so yeah you know he chose to marry someone who will never give him constructive criticism so you guys you guys may or may not know this my girlfriend also makes youtube videos and you know i do give her constructive criticism you know and sometimes it's as simple as saying babe that was good but you should do another take like you know that was okay you said everything you need to say but like it sounded rushed or it sounded this and that you're going to be happier if you just take a minute and do another you know it can be as simple as that you're sitting in the studio with her you know talking it through and you know she can say no i mean she could say nah this video doesn't matter enough to me to do them she could say whatever it's her decision ultimately but we do talk about editorial decisions and content based decisions and you know the research that goes into videos and things too and you do have you know we do have substantial discussion anyway vegan gains chose to be with someone no matter how ugly no matter how lazy no matter how stupid right no matter how immoral frankly i also think his wife is an immoral person someone who would absolutely never challenge him someone who would never make him feel lazy someone who would never make him feel immoral who would never make him feel like he's squandering the opportunity of lifetime somebody would never say to him what i said at the beginning of this video the very beginning of this video if you weren't here i said hey guys there was a time when people got on youtube because they were trying to save the world there was a time when these same people would be insulted if you said to them hey you're just doing this for money and now nobody even has this kind of aspiration ambition or pretension of course vegan gains is just trying to make money why did vegan gain start live streaming video games why did he start live stream himself lifting weights and all this other crap he's completely lost touch with the sense of moral purpose and creativity and art artistry that motivated him to make videos before of course it's just a cash he is doing the minimum amount of effort necessary to make money and he's barely able to drag himself out of bed and he chose to get married to a woman who would never make him feel bad about that who would never question him that way and would never you know would never make him question himself so yeah his wife also has a pornographic only fans it does it does have nudes etc etc yeah um you know i'll just ask you this honestly so anyone in the audience serious question so i'm interested if anyone in the audience can tell me about his current drug habits because to my knowledge he is back on or back on whatever he is now taking um antidepressants he's now taking psychiatric medication right um i forgot the second question oh yeah here's here's a legitimate question for you guys can you remember the last time you talked about a book he was reading a book he had read now i'll be honest with you i can remember durianrider talking about one book he'd read i can remember that from durianrider's whole career now i'm not saying that the only book he read during those years maybe he read several others i can remember him talking about a book he read can you remember richard ever like hey guys i got books i used to have stacks of books i can bring over my bookshelf can you remember richard ever saying even just even if he doesn't hold up the book can you remember him ever saying in passing yeah you know i used to see that issue that way but then i read this book and my perspective on it changed you know like my thinking about that issue changed because i can't remember books ever being cited or invoked or mentioned or discussed in that way on his channel i can't remember him ever talking about reading ever and you know he could have married someone and he could also have friends sorry not everything is the person you marry he could just have friends in his life who challenge him that way and i guess you know you'd have to say you know um during the brief time that i was his friend i might have been the only friend in his life who was challenging that way and maybe that's why he turned around and attacked me and over penis size maybe that's why he made penis size into a big deal like we're gonna have a competition over who has uh who has a bigger penis well okay richard if it were anyone other than you i would say that both of us can your wife and find out who's better in bed but i you know you couldn't pay me enough to your life [Music] i'd also i'd also like to point out every other critic richard has ever had he challenged them to a boxing match he challenged them to a cage fight he challenged them to a physical fight in a boxing arena or an mma gym and richard i am 42 years old okay bro i'm 42 years old i'm all natural bro okay and working on the gym it's not even on my top ten priorities bro you and i are the same height and you never challenge me to a fight not even when we're friends when i offer to meet up with in a friendly way richard i offered to fight you wearing the mask of one of the guys you hated this is the way that he had beef with another youtube channel he had a confidence you know i said look richard all show up i'll wear a mask pretending to be that guy and we'll do a we'll do a fight we'll do a boxing match you know even that you wouldn't do with me richard and i think it's because you know i could kick your ass i could kick your ass on strength of character richard all right at 42 years old and dude dude i spent eight months proofreading my book okay like i had a period of eight months where all i was doing was writing and revising my book for real where the gym was was zero priority i'm not in shape right now i'm not but we all know what kind of shape you're in well you know this guy's hopeful i could do i if you guys are interested i can launch into my critique of this guy's fitness advice it's the work it's the worst fitness advice on the internet i mean he's sorry he at least you can give him credit he's an idiot about everything he's an idiot about video games he's an idiot about politics he's an idiot about human sexuality dating a romance well guess what he's also an idiot about weightlifting and that's why he's constantly crippling himself in the gym while he's giving himself all these all these injuries you know and he says himself you can quote him on this he describes himself as mentally disabled he describes himself as being like an anorexic and having really serious you know mental and emotional problems that he puts into bodybuilding that he himself is dysfunctional in his approach to weight loss and muscle gain but he talks about his own mental and psychological problems now they warp his sex life now they wore because it gave you okay richard so you spell the nose for us so why the hell should anyone take your advice about health diet fitness bodybuilding anything you know but i mean this dude i mean so just just think about i don't know how tall is spirit so i realized there's a youtuber called spirit it's actually pronounced feya his name but everyone calls him spirit uh but you know richard how many times did you sit there threatening to beat up spirit well you made his career you took him from being a tiny youtube channel to a huge youtube nose because of you that you built this totally sneering insincere threat that you were going to meet up with and have a fight with spirit she did that again and again and again you know sorry i've such i have such contempt for it that's sorry sorry sorry it comes back sorry the most basic premise of this video and ask again again is whatever happened to getting on youtube because you were trying to save the world whatever happened to being a filmmaker because you're trying to make the world a better place what happened to that motivation what happened to you bro what happened this one guy vegan gains and i can ask anything in the audience what happened to you and you and you trying to make the world a better place what just happened to that positive motivation you know there's a really stupid you know saying in buddhism it's really stupid i mean a lot of buddhism is a pretty stupid religion it's it's better than islam if you've got to choose being buddhism and islam choose buddhism but there's a lot wrong with buddhism as a religion trust me but you know i remember there was just this saying and it was uh practice the dharma as if your hat is on fire you know like where you're getting out and doing something like you know it's you know you're working against this this time i remember these there were these things you know these other things too so remember i was reading pali the scriptural language and remember it was like saying things like like work so hard at this like you know put your whole heart into this work so hard that you are the envy of the gods you know this idea the gods are looking down you and they are envious of the life you're leading because you're you're really pushing you know again i'm sorry you know buddhism in a lot of ways is a stupid religion i'm an atheist i'm a nihilist i don't believe in anything supernatural you know but nevertheless like you know there's something there's something there you know i'm so i'm so sick of the mediocrity and self-indulgence and resignationism resignationism yes i'm coining it as a phrase of you know white english speaking middle class canadians and americans i'm so sick of people sitting here and saying like oh look at what's happening in afghanistan but what can any of us do oh i can give a thumbs up to this video oh i can go on kickstarter oh i can i can sit and judge joe biden morally like i hate all this and it's all based on this premise of like oh well there are thousands of people who need help there are millions of people who need help you can't help any one of them no you can practice the dharma like your hat is on fire you can exert yourself to the utmost limit or you are the envy of the gods you can do everything you can possibly do and if you went to afghanistan now if one of you goes to the afghan border and starts doing humanitarian work and if you help just 500 people and you know there are 50 000 more people you could have helped you get to have the satisfaction of saying hey i did everything i could do you know and instead i'm sorry to me richard is a typical toronto canadian instead what he wants to do is sit and judge other people as morally inferior to him even when they do exactly the same things as he does whether it's about penis size or the vegan diet or feeding your dog some kind of dog no matter how petty or it's about workout exercise it's about bodybuilding all he wants to do is sit and play video games and pass moral judgment other people and he is not even motivated to make the world a better place as a creative artist as a filmmaker as a youtuber and if you're not why are you on youtube shout out to natasha in the audience natasha says ah i think jasmine is pretty i i have okay i have heard heterosexual women say that only only i have never had a gay man say jasmine is attractive i've never had a straight man say just never never heard it once and no offense but when straight women say that about jasmine what they're really saying is there's nothing wrong with her you know which you know like she doesn't have acne you know like you know she's not misshapen i get that but yeah it's different seeing the world through the eyes of a heterosexual man it's different and you know among the things you respond to as heterosexual man it's not just appearance you respond to women who would make a good mother has a pretty deep you know uh biological urge it's not just about the shape of her face or body you respond to a woman thinking and feeling like you know this is someone who could raise my kids someone i could share my life with and obviously she has the opposite vibes under every single one of those headaches totally free i had you sorry i use no notes this is all 100 off the dome what is the title of this video i actually had something else in mind in particular this is criticism we haven't even talked about why he got banned so that's one thing we have not talked about his comments about this deceased bodybuilder right we have so yeah there's a lot of ground to cover and as i said yeah right right right the title is the science education channel from hell we haven't talked about that as claims to being a scientist okay i'm continuing to go to catch up with your comments guys so i got a question about so i talked about this in a recent video no big deal but you know um uh i got a question about saying that someone is objectively attractive versus subjectively attractive so i did talk about this in a in a recent video so guys when we're talking about the social sciences and politics very often what we mean by objective is inter-subjective so there are there were subjective judgments there were inter-subjective judgments and then there were truly objective judgments so what is a beautiful painting what is a valuable painting right now i may own a painting or whatever i got that flag hanging in the background i may say look this has value to me like whatever if i have a painting my daughter painted okay to me this painting is meaningful to me it's valuable whether you think about that be worth money or whatever you know i mean to me this is beautiful to me this is very subjectively to me this is something you know important yeah fine okay but it it doesn't have objective value in the sense of inter-subjective value there aren't 10 000 people at an auction who will bid and compete and pay money to buy that painting either because it's beautiful or important or what have you all the reasons that make you want to buy a painting so it is true that is not that is not truly um objective now the objective value of something which comes up once in a while sometimes you're looking at a work of art and it's actually made out of gold and diamonds and then you're making a further conscious say well look you know there's an objective value just the material that's made there are other senses in which we use objectives so now we can we can talk about uh contrasting uh objective and subjective evaluations so you know there are there are women who are beautiful to me personally and it may be because they're intelligent it may be maybe because they're kind it may be because we have things in common you know there may be a lot of reasons you know and that can lead you to look at someone in a certain light and appreciate them even though they have a big nose or like one of the most objective measures of all maybe they have acne maybe they have really bad skin and nobody is going to say that's a subjective judgment either someone has clear skin or they have a lot of acne or whatever they may have an illness they may also you know whatever they may have a disability or deformity like sciatica or something have a deformed spine which is really a serious problem but they're beautiful to you right and then we can talk about objective you know evaluations so we in a recent live stream i i commented to melissa that she's not just subjectively beautiful she's also objectively beautiful and i gave her the example which she could relate to right away i said melissa if you get a normal job again like in an office that has 500 employees some kind of you know big office i said if you're in an office with other employees or if you go back to university you start studying chinese universities you're around 500 people that way every day you know you're moving into classrooms and chatting with people and and then there will be multiple men complaining for your attention and affection especially if they don't know you're already married or already in a serious relationship that there will be multiple men competing for you so there may be a woman i find attractive but i know if she goes back to university or she goes into a workplace and people think she's single there will not be multiple men competing for us yeah you can talk about objective and subjective and you know and that's cool so said that i'm not i'm not quoting all the comments but there were different people who responded to that in different ways and that's fine so guys you know i just wanna say this if my talking about this makes you uncomfortable go ahead get uncomfortable it's good okay and then move past that and let's come to some meaningful analysis and meaningful conclusions like guys if we're going to talk about bodybuilding you're going to get uncomfortable if we're going to talk about penis size you're going to get uncomfortable if we're going to talk about veganism you're going to get uncomfortable okay and you've got to move you've got to move past it i mean you know frankly if we're going to talk about why vegan gains should be banned if we're going to talk about censorship you're going to get uncomfortable so many people in this society they live their lives with this notion about freedom of speech and they get so uncomfortable when you start talking about the necessity of censorship okay so get uncomfortable it's good we're going to talk about a lot of stuff today and and guys and if you're still uncomfortable send me an email afterwards or join patreon and send me a message on patreon i'm happy to hear from you i'm willing to get uncomfortable because i want to change the world and that's why i'm on youtube i make like 200 a month out of youtube okay i'm i'm willing to get uncomfortable with you and in a sense i'm going to get uncomfortable for you okay and here's the biggest taboo of all so i don't know if some of you are going to write in talking about this [Music] do you know how uncomfortable people get when you tell them that marijuana causes brain damage do you know how uncomfortable people get when you tell them that prescription psych medications cause brain damage that they are getting permanent brain damage from mind-altering drugs given to them on a prescription basis that are supposedly antidepressants or supposedly anti-psychotics some of them are anti-convulsive agents and so-called mood stabilizers and so on you know medications that are supposedly going to treat what's wrong with their attitude it's the truth what you have is an attitude problem and you're pretending it's a biologically real disease that can be cured with adderall right you have an attitude problem you're pretending can be cured with haldol or prozac or any of these drugs and guess what what you get is brain damage do you have any idea how uncomfortable people get when you start talking about brain damage go ahead get it uncomfortable and you richard you know that the drugs you're on don't work you know that the drugs you're on cause brain damage and you're on social media promoting them because you'd rather live in a dream you become everything you despise period shout out to unnatural vegan you heard of this youtube channel unnatural vegan unnatural vegan you know that you harmed your own baby by taking mind-altering drugs during pregnancy and breastfeeding you know and i know that you know and you came out in the most sheepish way imaginable admitted that you continued taking you know psych meds during your pregnancy and breastfeeding because you felt it would be best for you both of these people vegan gains and a natural vegan they know how to do a google search for peer-reviewed scientific evidence okay they have a long history of making youtube videos where they go and get even if it's cherry-picked even if it's dishonest even if it's incompetent where they go out and get the evidence and talk about brain damage liver damage the health benefits and defects of a okay so we know they can do it all right and you you choose not to because you'd rather live a dream while you're awake well i'm not one of the goddamn dreamers okay i'm one of the nihilists i want to live my life and die awake i'd rather be shot in the chest and be shot in the back all right i know what i'm out here struggling for okay you want to live a life based on faith you want to live a life based on self-selected obscurity you want to live a life based on optimistic ignorance or do you want to admit to yourself that the the things you enjoy the things that make you feel good may be bad for you they may be killing you and they may be bad for society and they may be bad for animals and they may be bad for the environment they may be bad for ecology they may be bad for the world or politics in another sense and the fact that you enjoy them justifies nothing do you want to be on the side of people making excuses or the people who come on youtube to argue passionately stop making excuses like that that's who you used to be richard you used to be part of the anti-excuse camp that's just i'll give her credit unnatural vegan there was a time however brief there was a time when you were out here on youtube telling people to give up their excuses you know and now you've become the opposite you've become the very thing you hate you've become everything you you despise [Music] catching up with the comments guys someone says alright p john meadows okay so look so i've kind of been dancing around this all right john meadows endorse an unhealthy diet all right john meadows unhealthy diet killed him now i do not know to what extent john meadows admitted the use of performance dancing drugs i just don't know how honest he was about that like i don't know if he was all the way honest or a little bit honest because these days most of the bodybuilders they'll kind of drop hints and fess up okay i i'm not just being real with you i have no interest in this guy's youtube content so i'm not gonna spend two or three hours watching his videos to get a sense of how honesty was about steroid i'm sorry i'm not willing to do that for john peters okay so rip rip giant metals right okay imagine you have a science education youtube channel you want to come out and talk about how john meadow's unhealthy diet advice contributed to his own early death imagine you have a science education youtube channel and you want to talk about how some of the choices he made in life maybe concerning drugs alcohol you know steroid use maybe this is how that contributed to dns you could even just imagine back to what vegan gains own videos were like five years ago you know i mean like it doesn't take that much imagination to think for me to think of someone doing the research and presenting it in a respectable way you know that's what i did talking about brain damage on my channel i'm not out here ridiculing people for having brain damage i'm talking with total sympathy i say look you people are sad you go into your doctor you say i'm broken fix me your doctor says here's the thing for you it's called prozac it's called haldol it's called adderall your daughter your doctor gives you a drug habit you went in because you're upset you're morose and your doctor says we have just the thing to cure what's wrong with you the problem isn't you the problem is that you have a bad attitude the problem isn't that this is something you can take responsibility for oh no here's the cure that's what richard did right richard got on these same drugs that he know of he knows have been debunked he knows the scientific literature he knows they don't work and he knows the negative side effects are real you know i got i got sympathy for that i'm not going to ridicule you for having brain damage and i've made videos in the past talking about one prescription drug i took it was for malaria malaria is a real disease it wasn't for some made-up disease like depression wasn't for some horseshit fad ideology pseudoscience right malaria really exists i don't know i have no idea how up i am for the rest of my life from taking a drug used to prevent you from contracting malaria that causes permanent brain i have no idea right i have no idea how different i have to live with that uncertainty forever so i have sympathy for you right i used to eat meat i used to eat yogurt i mean i remember i'm not i'm an amnesiac everybody in my family still today some of my friends eat me like i can't say to you like i refuse to talk to people even and there were people i don't even ask there were people who are fans of my youtube videos for other reasons and i know they hear about it enough on my channel you know and like they respect me because of politics they respect me for other reasons and i don't even ask and i know well if they listen to my youtube channel they know what comes up from time to time they know they're being presented with it and you know and there were people who tell me they became vegan because of my youtube channel blah blah blah but like dude as tough and disconcerting and disrespectful and disruptive as that message is like look you think you found the cure to depression and guess what you've bought into self-deception and you're getting permanent brain damage as a result that's disturbing okay well guess what your grandparents told you that beef is healthy that white chicken breast is what bodybuilders eat your grandparents told you that eating certain types of fish like arctic char is what all the you grew up with all this programming and ideology most of the bodybuilders are into raw uh chicken eggs you know they use egg whites and put them in a blender disgusting you know oh you know in the if you don't know this in the german language the word for protein is egg white eye weiss is protein and the german language is built into the language the idea that the best source of protein is is chicken eggs people live with this and they share the advice with others and they tell other people i can i talk to an ex vegan who's like oh you know like butter tastes good and it tastes good for a reason because you are evolved to love the taste of butter so it must be good for you and you have to bring in the jarring disturbing advice that no there's all kinds of that feels good and tastes good and it's wrong you know cocaine tastes good and it will kill you dogs will go out in the front yard and will lick up the chemicals that have leaked out of the bottom of your car because they like the smell and the taste of antifreeze and then they will die okay wild animals will eat things that poison them because they smell good and they look good and they enjoy eating them and then they keel over and die and we as animals are no better when i lived in england there were little children who went out in the yard and eat trumpet flowers so there's a type of flower there's more than one type of trumpet flower the trumpet flowers that are commonly grown in english gardens in england are incredibly poisonous incredibly toxic but they look beautiful and they smell nice and little children they make up some games like i don't know why like it's not like they were starving or something but they went and they ate these plants and to my recollection some of them were hospitalized and got their stomach pump and i think some actually died okay you know um it can smell good it can look good it can make you feel good all right and guys if you think if you think that the struggle we're in now against antidepressants is tough guess what's coming next sarms sarms are next baby okay if you don't know what sarms are it's not gonna be long okay because guess what guess what the good news is about prozac it doesn't work all right so people buy into this whole ideology oh this is going to solve my problems oh i was born with a chemical imbalance in my brain well yeah but you take the actual psychological effects of prozac aren't worth having the actual psychological effects of haldol aren't worth having oh no adderall that's different oh now you feel good now you feel like yourself oh that was what was wrong with me especially the first few weeks later you become a crippling addict for some people interestingly xanax is not consistent some people love the feeling of xanax some people hate it not everyone responds in the same way yeah how about cocaine guys how different is that oh so your first but dudes if you start if you start shooting up if you start shooting up testosterone booster when you start using testosterone you start using things that modify your your hormone system okay talk about a pure natural high it's completely unnatural but the high is now oh now your testosterone is boosted and almost every single one of the performance enhancing drugs there are some exceptions some of the performance nancy drugs are instead based on your your red blood cell count but most of the performance enhancing drugs people use either their primary effect is boosting testosterone or it's a secondary or tertiary effect like their primary effect may be something else but then that leads to your body over producing testosterone of course there's direct testosterone building so steroids sarms so-called hormone replacement therapy testosterone boosters of every kind guess what guys when you get on testosterone all of a sudden you ain't depressed you ain't depressed at all you're highly motivated you feel amazing and you don't even think you're on a drug high i feel like the canary in the coal mine for this is the female to male transgender community there are women and it's mostly ex-transgender people who talk about this but there are transgender people there are people who are still transgender who are willing to talk with us there are women who think they have all these psychological problems and they're so unhappy so they go to a psychiatrist and they decide to transition between genders and then they really feel like they made the right decision because as soon as they start taking testosterone booster all their problems in life seems oh i used to be shy and now i'm self-confident i used to be moping and depressed and now i'm waking up at six o'clock in the morning and going to the gym there are all these effects on your sex life and your psychology and it's a drug high right it's a drug trip so if you think this is a tough fight now with the excuses being made for uh for antidepressants it's only gonna get tougher because the drugs that have already been around for 40 years in terms of steroids performance interest they've become cheaper and more readily available and there are new drugs there are the sarms there's the next generation coming out right and they're even if they have no advantage the fact that they haven't been debunked as effective the fact that there isn't scientific research pointing out the negative side effects and disadvantages and what they are the fact that you know just because it's new because it's a new development right now you're really up against uh self-justifying mentality you know so yeah i mean you know i said this about veganism you know the excuses for eating meat are harder to quit than the meat you know we could say this about antidepressants it's the excuses for antidepressants that are hard to quit that's harder to quit than the antidepressants itself right but guess what homie once you're a testosterone addict you're a testosterone addict for life if you are a man your testicles shut down your body's natural hormone balance shuts down forever you never recover you've been made into a you've been made into a lifelong drug addict and now the question you have to ask yourself every day is just how much you're going to abuse that drug like so once it becomes that once it becomes that you get your testosterone out of a bottle and by the way one of the common ways to do is with the gel you don't have to inject it you can do it through the skin right how much jelly gonna put on so now you wake up in the morning and you put on the jungle think oh i feel good it's like it's not that different from coffee right have i had enough coffee to go to work today what if what if you put on twice as much testosterone gel or inject twice as much take twice a minute oh now now you feel good so in that case it's not just the excuses that are hard to quit it's the drug itself that's hard to quit and and guess what when you quit taking testosterone booster whatever the format whatever the drug because again many there are many different performance sensing drugs that that uh that boost testosterone then you have chemically induced depression then you're in a situation where you feel listless you feel no ambition you have no sex drive many men report they can't get an erection at all now you feel depressed in a way that never existed in nature in the whole evolutionary history of our species you know okay i'm reading here i'm reading your comments guys sorry for the radio silence i'm just trying to catch up in response to my question can you ever remember uh richard mentioning a book he's read so we got the name of one of the one of the manga he met right so he read he read some japanese comic books mostly i've heard him talk about hardcore porn from japan that he reads or watches but yes so there was one one manga he quoted one japanese comic book so there you go this gives you a sense of just how much or how little intellectual development he's been through you know so someone asks um if if vegan gains is a is a closeted homosexual um you know i wouldn't i wouldn't uh uh i wouldn't imagine that richard is a repressed homosexual i don't i don't see that but you know i think he is utterly lacking the kind of warmth and positivity and you know frankly humility and you know self-analysis and self-doubt that's needed to have a positive sex life you know you got to do that you got to do that for years and in some ways you got to do it forever so you know look it may sound weird coming from me most people on the internet talk about that you need to have self-confidence to have a good sex life well you can have too much self-confidence you know you can you can be in a situation what you need is more self-doubt you know you know there's a lot of insects you know i'm okay are you okay really having sensitivity to other person's feelings and really thinking about their feelings before they complain about them you know what i mean it's not like you're not like you take it to a point where they're complaining you know there's a huge important role for for self-criticism and self-doubt and sexuality that's part of being a loving partner uh even look i'm just gonna even if you're just doing hardcore porn even if you're meeting up with somebody you talk for 15-20 minutes and then you film a porn scene together and you know like there really is no relationship still really being sensitive and self-critical and caring about someone's feelings um there's a lot that goes into that and so that's what he's lacking you know he lacks being magnanimous entirely and i think that that you know he has this kind of crippling debilitating intellectual problem which is why his sexuality is so weird and so strange but no i mean there's never been any sign that he desires to be with men um and you know not even his interests he's not really interested in other men's bodies that way and so on you know sorry a lot of a lot of a lot of comments for me to catch up with here i'm trying to okay so the the issue of censorship comes up here again again i'm sorry i don't know how much time has passed since you you guys made these comments um you know imagine if instagram did not allow pictures of swimsuits at all what if instagram what if they had a rule that you couldn't show any more flesh than you could in a t-shirt what if they even ever will all i could show is your hands and your hands and face no this is going to sound ridiculous let's take it all the way you can't even wear tight clothing all right um obviously the whole character of instagram and people's messages with each other on instagram would be different right now on the other hand what if instagram allowed nudity what if instagram allowed hardcore pornography you know how that would change it you know so censorship matters and it matters positively just in separating things into separate categories you know um if you want you know the fact that you don't want instagram to become a hardcore porn platform doesn't mean you're morally opposed to pornography existing on planet earth there's just a different website you can go to for hardcore pornography the fact that you want them to be separate magazines that you don't want the politics magazine and the hardcore porn magazine to be one of the same you know it doesn't mean you're against it um existing absolutely so i think there is a lot of demonization of of censorship but you know censorship is a kind of self-definition now i'll say that again you know what defines you if you produced your own magazine i know it's old-fashioned obviously this applies to youtube channel or anything else but let's just you were writing articles and producing your own magazine and it starts off with you every every issue you're writing multiple articles it's a monthly magazine and you try to involve some of your friends and relatives and contributing articles this magazine you know and then one of your friends writes an article that you feel isn't good enough there's something offensive about it it's it's too stupid it's too mean-spirited let's say mean spirit is the problem they write an article and they say you will look come on you got to fill up this whole magazine you can't write ourselves why don't you publish my article in your magazine you could say back no this magazine is defined by what i refuse to publish you know like the fact that i am excluding that article the fact that i'm saying no that's too mean-spirited or that's too stupid that's too offensive that's what defines the magazine you know it's easy to say the magazine is defined by what you do publish but what you do say but what you do right but there's also this really you know this really important point where you are defining your publication you are defining yourself you know through editorial control through what you reject so you know censorship is a form of self definition now i'll say this too um at the risk of boring my girlfriend because something we've talked about before you know um language is not a method of writing language is not a method of communication and language is not even method of recording events from the past at its most fundamental language is a method of thinking we think in language when we're alone we think in language in our dreams right and we have to think a language before we can write something or publish something you know when you censor yourself when you really try to speak accurately you know what i mean you are also trying to think accurately you're forcing yourself to think actually so you know it's very easy to say insulting things about people it's very easy to say defamatory things with people where you're just being approximate and imprecise and you're not forcing yourself to really think precisely and really uh speak accurately but you know one of the one of the things i've done on live streams and i've drawn attention to it sometimes i refer to a woman as a girl and i stop i say no young woman you know so you know i was talking to this girl young woman she was about 21 and then i keep going with the anecdote you know you know i'm forcing myself to speak accurately because i wanna i wanna think accurately you know and that is self-censorship and you should censor yourself that is one of the most powerful acts of defining who you are and with time over years it changes who you are you become a better person and you think more precisely so you know in this video i've said negative things about richard but all of them are true you know i see so many commentary videos on youtube that make criminal allegations about people and make innuendo and say say things about people's sex lives that are not remotely true and a lot of the time it doesn't seem to me like the person is intentionally lying that they're intentionally creating a myth they're just thinking in a very sloppy way where they don't want to question themselves contrary to themselves self-censor and force themselves to really think and speak accurately you know just catching up with your comments okay so we have one person in the audience i don't know if you're still here who is defending uh prozac who claims this supposed to be babe can you grab the book for me so i'm gonna i'm gonna give you a book to read audrey you claim this helps you okay i will give you the link at amazon i think i can send a link you know i'll just type out what the google got okay audrey so this is for you you can google this and you get the book audrey you've heard me say that these drugs you're making excuses for cause brain damage i notice you don't say that i'm wrong i notice you don't say that i'm incorrect i notice you don't say that i'm ignorant i notice you don't claim that i don't know what i'm talking about you don't say that i haven't done the reading i think it's because you you know you know that i do know what i'm talking about all right what you say is that you feel that this drug works for you okay audrey before you come out in public and you claim this drug works and for some reason you're not making the claim it doesn't cause brain damage isn't that interesting isn't that strange why wouldn't you say oh no that's not true no no so on some level you are aware that this causes brain damage you just think that you have an excuse for it you think you have an excuse good enough to justify the negative side effects to justify the brain damage okay audrey how about you read this one book now a few times you could watch videos that are on my youtube channel that present a whole ton of the scientific facts and there were videos on my channel but there were it's not me speaking i've edited it together i did an intro and outro but where it's a whole series of clips from medical experts who spent years of their lives doing research and publishing peer-reviewed papers right it's not my opinion okay audrey you can you can hear that right but don't you think don't you think that what you're doing is irresponsible and even evil let's let's talk about the world's most popular drug alcohol alcohol causes brain damage audrey are you aware that marijuana causes brain damage what if someone said the same thing to you that you've just said to me quote it's just how my brain is quote it works well for me quote it helps me with anxiety okay if you think alcohol helps you with your anxiety you're an addict alcohol does help people with their anxiety if they're alcoholics oh yeah yeah yeah you know marijuana oh yeah helps with anxiety you're talking about taking a sedative you use marijuana you're sedated when you use it regularly you're addicted to sedatives you think that helps you with your anxiety and you think that doesn't cause brain damage really audrey you should be ashamed of yourself now i'm asking you to hold yourself to a higher standard the same standard we're here expecting vegan gains told himself to right like dude do the research dude take responsibility for the message you're putting out in the world right and by the way just again it doesn't have to be a positive message i'm totally fine with people coming up on the internet and saying you know their grandpa died and they're upset about it or how much they are disappointed with the canadian government you can share your misery and your failure and your disappointment and your agony i am the last person to say it needs to be a positive message i think you have got to take responsibility for the consequences of the message you you share right and i think about that even when i'm talking about like my university when i say hey this is a terrible university here's my terrible experience but i feel like i have to be scrupulously honest and accurate so i'm not going to damage someone else's life so i'm not going to screw up someone else's life whether that's the professors or other students right i'm not going to overstep you know certain lines even antagonists on that right where i really know you know so you know audrey what you have just said about these drugs and how they make you feel have you ever talked to a cocaine addict about how cocaine makes them feel do you believe cocaine causes brain damage or would you accept a completely subjective argument from a cocaine addict that all it certainly certainly helps with your anxiety yeah right right it's your right it's your brain chemistry right that's right yeah okay so good question sir guys a lot of good comments and i'm i'm trying to read through them you know glad to see clara's see people are still here and putting up with uh putting up with these you know frankly hard to deal with this i understand this stuff is disturbing i understand it's going to make you uncomfortable you know so james macpine says quote how can people deal with depression anxiety body dysmorphia or an eating disorder without drugs give these people an effective alternative isil okay so james i don't know how old you are i don't know what kind of experience you have in life all right i have never once on my channel said that everyone should read aristotle i have never once in my channel said that everyone should read thucydides now in case you don't know what i'm talking about here some people don't know these names i'm going to type them out for aristotle and thucydides it's these are really important books from ancient greece all right i don't think there is one solution to everyone's problems even to the extent of recommending that everyone in this audience should read aristotle and thucydides one pardon me one-on-one i talk to individual people i get to know them i understand their problems understand their aspirations their ambitions their research interests and i say yeah you you need to read aristotle if this is what you're doing and this okay well here's what and it's very specific i'm not saying read everything by aristotle well you know there's this book by aristotle that deals with that okay i think the error you're making here james that you may not realize is that you are implicitly medicalizing these conditions as if they were equivalent to diabetes right like oh well how do you deal with diabetes and then we scientifically understand what diabetes is there's type 1 type 2 type 3 and then we can give advice if you are diabetic you should eat more of this eat less of that that we can give recommendation for diabetes that will be equally true of one diabetic person and another okay if you are quote unquote depressed you do not have a biologically real condition that makes you in any way comparable to someone else who is diagnosed with depression never has never asked me guess what guys why don't you just talk to the other people in the waiting room when you're going to get your so-called meds oh why are you here uh well my father died and i started being depressed and you know i was coping with it by really overeating and i had no sex drive so that's diagnosed as depression there's another person in the same waiting room getting the same medication supposedly to cure the same chemical and balance in their brain oh well why are you here oh well um i broke up with my girlfriend and i've been depressed and since i broke up with her i haven't met someone new yet and my sex drive is really high and i've been losing weight i've been nervous and not eating and the symptoms are totally different and one person's depression involves sleeping too much they sleep more hours than they do and another person is sleeping less they find they can't sleep they're nervous and jumpy one person gains weight one person loses weight one person has uh an increased sex drive one person feels no sex driving oh gee and this is all one biologically real condition and all of these symptoms and all these scenarios whether it's that you miss your deceased father or you broke up with your girlfriend or maybe you're depressed because you're cheating on your girlfriend you have a girlfriend and you're you're dealing with the stress of having a second girlfriend you know people get depressed for all kinds of reasons you're depressed because of the pressure of studying oh right and yeah and here is one in the same pill that will cure this quote-unquote chemical imbalance in the brain that scientifically never existed so james i i know your question is well intentioned but what i'm directing you to do is examine the assumptions that are the base of it because i don't even believe in recommending that everyone read the same book and reading a book will not give you brain damage um now the other examples you give so do you do you have the delusion that depression is one thing in the same sense that you know like type 2 diabetes is one thing that unites together people like i've already talked about ridiculous that is right you think anxiety is one thing one biological there's an amazing array of things that are described as anxiety are you kidding me you think body dysmorphia is one thing have you known three different people with bodies more than totally different totally different you know psychological problems reflecting different particular background you know and sometimes people will tell you oh yeah they have this specific form of body dysmorphia because they grew up in this condition with this mother it can be very specific like their father was a gym coach who wanted them to be an olympic athlete and in gymnastics or something like there are really specific reasons why people have biting smoke their people have bites morphia because their older sister was more beautiful than them and they were trying to look at their older sister and it's not the same it's not one thing it's a it's a category applied to totally miscellaneous experiences of human misery you know and you want one alternative in the same sickening ridiculous way that one pill is supposed to cure all these people just saying just tell me there was a time when i'd separated from my wife now we're legally divorced so first you're separated then you're legally you know i was very sad because i couldn't see my daughter still sad about it split up i couldn't see my daughter anymore and all these people were lying to me and manipulating me and treating me like crap i really it's not worth getting there were a lot of people being cruel to me when they should have been kind exactly the people i relied on to be honest with me including my lawyer of that time people were lying to me and manipulating me and doing things about my back it was a terrible terrible situation do you guys have any doubt that at that time if i had gone and told the doctor about this just a just normal md do you have any doubt that i could have been prescribed mind-altering medications like this whether antidepressants or what do you have any doubt that somebody remember oh oh gee well that sounds like a real problem here's the cure for that sure sure sure no but either way no either way so melissa says if you're having trouble sleeping because you're thinking about how much you miss your daughter okay but also the opposite what if you're sleeping too long you go and you say oh you know i'm sleeping 11 hours a day because i'm so depressed either one it's taken as a symptom for the same condition for the same cure they will give me the same drug that they gave richard that they gave vegan gains like what's vegan gaines's problem he has violent fantasies about killing he's this violent malevolent depressed person it's a totally different form of so-called different we call them both depression she you sit around in your apartment playing violent video games you have these violent outbursts and all this stuff with guns and knives and all you okay you got all this okay we're gonna call that depression and we're gonna give you the same treatment there are even more diverse things that can be classified as anxiety or eating disorder or whatever there are totally different human experiences totally different problems of attitude total problems of philosophy totally different problems in terms of cognition in terms of really like mental disability like part of richard's problem is that he's stupid we all know this right whether or not he ever gets diagnosed as having a learning disability or mental disability he you know he has a history of very serious concussion is this is he has a history of brain damage and problems caused by um injury to his to his brain you know history of brain injury okay so like who in their right mind would look at my situation where i've split up with my wife probably have split up with my wife and i miss seeing my daughter and compare that to richard who's fanatic fanatically hates babies fanatically hates having children and anyone who has children and who has violent fantasies about you know and oh oh no it's the same it's the same chemical imbalance with the same cure uh-huh whether you gain weight or lose weight whether you you know whether you sleep too much or sleep too little so ron sims says that he was put on psych meds at one point for autism so ron has talked about his uh dubious autism diagnosis for he still doesn't really know if in some sense he's meaning he's autistic or not because but anyway he's living a moral normal life so if he is autistic he's just slightly autistic but yeah um he said that the the psychomeds he was put on left him quote a howling mess and a doll thanks for writing in ron i appreciate your honesty on these things and you know the other question is just to what extent are the meds pardon me impairing your sleep because any psychological condition you have is made worse by sleep deprivation and a lot of these meds reduce the quality of your sleep or reduce the quantity of your sleep now you have impaired sleep and then you start having all kinds of other psychological problems that you may or may not attribute to lack of sleep because you may not be able to perceive it like you're lying in bed for the right number of hours but you don't realize you know um [Music] you don't realize the extent of which that's impacting your life directly and indirectly okay so audrey has has doubled down and is still defending this sorry i do want to move on to other topics and we got to wrap up talking about the what's in the title of this video okay so audrey you say quote it took me two years to get my brain back to 100 after trying that drug close quote so you not do available brain damage you think if you if you were willing to read one book one book you think your view that the brain damage is not permanent would be sustainable really you don't think that mistake had permanent consequences for you for the rest of your life you think there are you think there's science to back that up that it's not permanent brain damage they're not permanent changes in the structure of the brain really you know you're bullshitting you know you're living a lie look guys you know what i compare this to so i'm jewish ethnically i'm not a member of the jewish religion you think jewish people don't live with these kinds of justifications about circumcision like you lose about 40 of the nerve endings in your penis oh well you know i have this really good excuse for what just recognize that you're making excuses you know what i mean you recognize you know you know that this causes permanent brain damage all right and whatever you want to say about you recognize that this causes permanent brain damage now what you have to recognize is that you're making excuses for it you have to stop making excuses sorry so i am reading all your comments guys that's why you have a little bit of silence here so uh we get another vote from quite jaded from someone who says that jasmine is not ugly she has some features that some people might find attractive so i had a friend who um vegan gains led into their more private circle of people who watch these private live streams they do from their apartment so i forget if you did that over uh discord or what but he i forget what the format was but he used to have more footage again for people he trusted of them walking around their their apartment and so on you know um i'm sorry but i really can't separate the way someone looks from their intellectual and emotional character you know now admittedly when you see a photograph beautifully taken by a professional photographer that's exactly what it does like you know a great photographer will make someone look intelligent who's a complete idiot they'll get their face and their their eyes just the right moment where their eyes are focused in a certain way wow you know so whether it's a hollywood actress or anything else there are very stupid people who are who are made to look engaging and intelligent what have you but you know anyone if you know them even for for 15 minutes or 30 minutes you know the ultimate reason why jasmine is is repulsive is because she's a repulsive character it's because of who she is intellectually and uh and ethically and emotionally you know so you know uh is it impossible to take a picture of jasmine that would that would be flattering that would get her no you know i'm not gonna i'm not gonna dispute that you know that you can take a flattering picture of her but um [Music] yeah i mean she is the worst kind of self-indulgent frankly you know malevolent and self-righteous video game addict she's a terrible person and i can't imagine anyone having a 15-minute conversation with her and finding her charming or lovely or attractive or still finding her uh attractive so you know so yeah you know i'm just saying that the the judgment that someone is uh uh someone is repulsive involves all these things [Music] [Music] boom tendo says looking great looks like you lost some weight i have not lost one pound just being just being real with you i i weighed myself i think yesterday so no i i have not lost one pound we'll see we'll see if i lose anyway but anyway um i am now trying to work out more because um switch up the pace of working on the book for about eight months all my time energy was going okay guys so uh i've read all your comments uh not everything is worth replying to no offense i'm gonna wrap up coming back to the title this youtube video if you guys have more to say that is on topic no offense but we're gonna come back and talk a little bit more narrowly about vegan gains colon the science education channel from hell um you may disagree with me i feel that we would all agree that what vegan gains says he is supposed to do that what vegan gain says his aspiration to do on youtube is is really a tremendously positive thing that we need more of in the world right like it would be wonderful if someone were really doing what he pretends to do what he says he's trying to do but the you know tragedy is that what he claims to be a science education channel what he claims to be educational and informative and reaching out to people and engaging in debate and so on it's not that at all i mean it becomes nothing but a parade for his own you know tremendously fragile ego now i challenge you guys the way you can disagree with me you can give your own opinion when i look at vegan gains i don't see a self-confident person i see someone who is tremendously fragile i see someone who responds to me making a video talking about penis size by harassing me about my own penis size and boasting about his penis size then eventually he goes public with it starts posting pictures of his penis i see vegan gains being you know tremendously fragile even in talking about diet and exercise you know weight loss about being thin and about weight gain meaning gaining muscle you know and i don't know if you guys have seen there are moments other youtube channels have cobbled together of him freaking out and getting incredibly upset because someone says he's fat someone says he's overweight someone says he needs to to lose weight or be leaner and obviously he himself has talked about his feelings of self-loathing about not being muscular enough not being enormous enough that he wants to be you know perceived this way so you know richard is a grown man now you know what kind of grown man bases his self-confidence on the size of his penis what kind of grown man bases his self-confidence on the size of his muscles or frankly like within reason how thin you are you know like i understand if you're 300 pounds overweight or something you know for 400 pounds okay i understand this is a problem but you know within within reasonable limits you know in a very simple sense what does any of it matter well the point is what does it matter compared to something else right you know my ego isn't based on any one thing in particular you know i mean my sense of feeling good about myself to say say briefly in two points is based on leading a meaningful life all the time every day even if i'm busy with a newborn infant in my arms when my daughter was a newborn infant i would rock her to sleep by the way i'm doing it like this you use your whole body i got a big workout you know anyway i would i would rock her to sleep in my arms and then when she was asleep i literally picked up and started reading thucydides i was reading politics of ancient greece and rome at that time it's a very special time in life i'm taking care of this infant i'm mopping the floor i'm cooking i'm struggling to lead a meaningful life even then while taking care of my daughter as a newborn infant sometimes i'd lay her down to sleep and i'd put in one headphone you know you'd have to have one ear in case she wakes up in the cribs i'd layer down in the crib and then i'd go to do the dishes yeah that's you know when the baby's asleep that's your chance to do dishes and i would do dishes the crib would be right there the way i could i could see it and i'd do dishes and i listened to herodotus because in the harada this is another ancient greek uh herrera yeah you know i listened to i was listening to a meaningful book on tape and one of my memories is i can remember walking past her crib because every so often in herodotus it would mention some obscure place like somewhere in in turkey or something that's probably like where is that on a map and i would i'd be watching this and i'd drive my hands and i'd really as quietly as possible you know while trying to stop my hands i would tiptoe past my daughter's crib and then go to the computer and google like where is this place in ancient turkey or ancient egypt or something you know i go back to watch this you know what is my ego based on you know what it's based on the struggle to lead a meaningful life which is a struggle that never ends it's a struggle that's with you every day whether you're busy working at mcdonald's you're busy working at starbucks you're in the army or you're taking care of a newborn infant where you're learning you're progressing you're leading a a meaningful life you know all the time and then beyond that right it's and this guy's this does not come to you as a teenager if you're watching this as a teenager i guarantee you don't know what i mean by this yet okay my ego my sense of self confidence is based on doing the best i can all right even if you fail again and again and again just i'm just going to use this example quickly because i just mentioned it guys i'm not the greatest expert on aristotle i'm not the greatest expert on thucydides or herodotus i am not the greatest expert on anything to do with ancient rome or ancient greece i meet people with phds in that field from time to time and they seem to know less than i do there are a lot of people with phds don't really you don't really know that much you can't have that interesting conversation it doesn't matter okay but the point is whether i meet someone with a phd or meet someone with some totally different background whatever it is i don't go into the conversation acting like i have the biggest penis in the world right i don't go into the conversation as if i have the biggest muscles in the world or as if i'm better than you i go into the conversation saying and feeling annoying like hey i'm doing the best i can even if i don't know everything about ancient greece i mean sorry here's one book i haven't read it's very important book xenophon um i've read several different books by xenophon some are better than others by the way i have read many books but this particular book by xenophon i have never read yet and somebody could easily say oh well you must just be a beginner no i've been reading about the politics of ancient greece and rome for decades but i never got around to this one you know well look you know there are holes in my knowledge there are imperfections there are things i don't know there are things i'm ignorant of i have shortcomings i have flaws i have biases right i have questions but i go into this conversation with a kind of confidence that's based on just knowing that i am doing the best i can and i have years and years and years behind me of hard work of trying to do the best i can now guys this thing with vegan activism right you know we can ask richard richard are you now or were you ever doing the best you can really really are you trying to save the world are you trying to save the animals and i talked to them i'm sorry there were different points i remember i was in chiang mai and i asked richard like dude would you come back to chiang mai look we will be back he'd never been there but i've been there repeatedly dude would you come and join me in chima i can introduce you to other vegan activists you can make a difference and he was basically like no he was too lazy you know he wanted to keep on living the same life with video games and dogs and stuff like you know taking a vacation in chiang mai to go and meet other vegan activists is that really doing the best is that really heroic or extraordinary is that even as much work as reading xenophon or thucydides or aristotle like really doing that it's really it's really nothing you know i when i was pursuing vegan activism when i was trying to do that i gave it 110 i was doing the best i can when i tried to do an answering and i failed okay there's a sense in which every single area of my life i've had ambitions in i failed but i did the best i could and i became a better person as a result and exactly what's missing from richard's life and it does relate to his self-esteem it does relate to his self-image it does relate to his disregard for his disdain for others the way he has to belittle other people to feel good about himself right he has not been doing the best he can and he hasn't developed into a better person as a result over the years and years and years that he's been on youtube so as i see a lot of a lot of comments coming in so i'm just i'm just uh i'm just gonna take a moment to reply to someone [Music] okay so guys there are a couple different questions asking about what is the benefit of this kind of reading what is the benefit of this kind of education i think one that that's very succinct is quote what do you do with this knowledge so shout out to you thanks you've been here this whole time i appreciate you being in the live stream you've been here before uh it's from a guy called do you want to give me lucas for whatever reason that's his youtube name so he asked simply what do you want to do with this knowledge you're asking the wrong question the question is who do you want to be who do you want to become with this knowledge okay what you do changes who you are what you learn what you understand changes who you are okay sometimes gradually sometimes suddenly you want a great example veganism people live their whole lives i remember my mother my mother was above 50 years old and she did not know the difference between a bull and a steer and she was shocked and horrified when i explained to her that animals are castrated on farms not a few hundred not a few thousand millions billions you know oh gee what do you think the difference is between a wild boar and a pig raised in confinement this way guess what castration is a huge part of it guys you know um very simple things people don't know what you know what a hot dog is as a child you're given a hot dog in japan little children are given sushi and generally they're often given fish that's been cut into little red squares it doesn't look like an animal they don't know where it has no eyes you know it has no face they just encounter this as a little red cube and we encounter the hot dog just as this faceless morsel you know and you may not think about how that's produced you may not think about what the consequences are okay and what you know changes how you feel right and then how you feel and what you do and what you learn from there what happens next and that cycle of suffering and that cycle of learning that changes who you are okay i am not reading this book in order to do something right this is not a manual right for how to assemble a car engine all right i'm reading this manual because there's somebody i want to be and i now in my 40s get to live with the uplifting joy every day of already being the person i want to be i already embody all the virtues i aspire to have back when i was a teenager and it wasn't easy it was a long hard harrowing process with unbelievable heartbreak and disappointment involved you know now guys sorry i'll give this as an example because it may be one you can relate to it's not something richard is going to do it's not something vegan gains is ever going to do he seems to have no interest in doing any activism related to veganism anymore i don't know why okay so you guys know you know there are there are terrible human humanitarian crises right now connected to syria there are some connected to afghanistan if you were talking to me one-on-one about what you could do very few people do but once in a while people people have a kind of consultation because they have a background humanitarian work i have a background in politics you know what i mean like the ultimate question is who are you going to be who are you going to become by the end of this process because it's not going to be the rest of your life like it's not reasonable to think you're now going to move to afghanistan and never come back and just know that some sometimes possible it's possible you go to afghanistan you stay till you're 90 years old and that's it you you it's you're done but the odds are this is going to be a period of your life where you're involved with humanitarian issues in syria or humanitarian issues in afghanistan but for you not just some person at random for you specifically how are you going to develop who are you going to become that's more important than asking what are you going to do right and you're going to learn things that aren't written in any book you know you're going to learn things or that may be incidental or unintentional you know to the book sir i was just reading this book about the assassination of martin luther king jr um and there's a long interview with one of the assassins one of the guys who actually participated in carrying out the assassination in case you didn't know it wasn't just one guy big surprise but you know um you know part of what you learn in reading that interview is just what it was like to grow up in memphis at that time and what it was like for him as a as a career criminal who never read a book in his life he talked a lot about his life and his perspective on the world you know you you know and he he talked about what it was like having a father who was openly racist in the deep south a father who was a member of racist organizations and so on and how he sees it now i mean that's not what the book is about but that's part of what you benefit in the same way even if you you define your humanitarian agency your humanitarian project very strictly as just being providing food to starving people you're gonna learn so much else in in doing that you're gonna learn what it's like to be on the border of afghanistan or the border of syria and to try to get your truck repaired you know what i mean and then you deal with all these human elements you didn't see coming now if you have some human decency which vengeance does not if you have some sympathy if you have some depth of empathy right then when you engage in vegan activism you also learn this this stuff too right you learn all this stuff from working with other people and hearing other people including that other people tell you why they tried to make a vegan diet work but it failed and they just couldn't do it as stupid as that may be i have sympathy for like i know what people are going through people who tried to lose weight and they couldn't lose weight people tried to gain muscle and couldn't when you really work with them and sympathize with them and understand what they're going through there can be so much that comes out positively from veganism or vegan activism as a humanitarian project but of course he does he does you know so i have some people joining the chat now who are just shocked to learn that uh vegan gains channel has been deleted it is probably temporary but yes as of this moment vegan gains has disappeared uh from youtube and some of you are probably here just because you were you were googling to see what what had happened with this channel and why it disappeared welcome to the welcome to the crowd we're kind of wrapping up and giving giving final conclusions here i am reading the comments i'm interested because of something uh something significant to say you know so you know all right vegan gains if you think about what his youtube channel was supposed to be and you can look at it in different periods of his channel each one of which was derivative of someone else's influence right like he had a period of time where he was trying to imitate ask yourself and do these uh highly confrontational debates he had a period of time where he was imitating this youtube channel and that youtube channel um but you know the higher aspiration that's there to actually have a science education channel and to actually respond to something like the death of this bodybuilder so i'm sorry to my memory this guy died at age 49 and to really talk about that seriously and sincerely and say look guys you may be making choices about your diet and it tastes good and it feels good and people can eat a meat diet and they don't even get fat you can eat as this guy proved this bodybuilder proof you can have a high cholesterol meat diet and they're a bodybuilder they look beautiful or they're on the cover of cosmopolitan magazine or men's health magazine this is epidemic there are tons of gorgeous people eating uh you know eating a meat based diet or high cholesterol diet okay it may taste good it may feel good it may be that when you look in the mirror you like what you see but i'm here to tell you on my science education channel that notwithstanding all of that what you're doing still fundamentally is bad and evil and wrong and you know what you could find out because like kevin smith you end up in the hospital with a heart attack and it might be you never find out because you don't wake up in the hospital you have that first heart attack and there never is a second heart attack you never have a second chance because you drop dead and you never come back and you know what else you might live your whole life in a state of blissful ignorance where you never ask and answer that simple question every four-year-old ask their parents where does my food come from what is this what is inside the hotdog where does my food come from that that's on this plate where you never get interested in that and you never take responsibility for it you know you may never deal with the consequences you may never suffer negative health consequences yourself and you may never see the ecological consequences or the ethical consequences of the way in which you're destroying the world for your own ignorant self-indulgent diet you know but this youtube channel is here to shake you out of your indifference and really let you know in a meaningful sense that what you're doing is bad and evil and wrong we need people on youtube now more than ever who are positively motivated to do the job that vegan gains took on but as soon as he had money as soon as he had fame he lost all interested he went into a downward spiral of self-indulgence you know and i closed this video by asking a question same question i asked at the beginning who who today is coming on youtube with that positive motivation of trying to save the world who is coming out here trying to make the world a better place you know it can't all be about money it can't all be about fame it can't all be about getting laid someone has to be positive motivated to do the right thing just because it's the right thing to do somebody has to be making youtube content to change the world or to help people in one small part of it and i'm making this video to ask the question maybe it's you