Q&A: Chiang Mai, Veganism, Meaning of Life, etc.
26 May 2017 [link youtube]
And, yeah, I sincerely hope this is the last video I ever make mentioning Durianrider.
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I'm honest yen I think those are all
probably questions worth asking the probably if some other person did that showed up and said hey I really want to talk to during writer about the bad advice he's giving people to drop out of school it's another issue the bad impact seven people's Ilia pram stole she dropped at a high school to go to chain my and do that test bag test bag dropped out of high school to do this I don't approve of that I don't I really think there were moral issues there I think during writer gave terrible bass to everybody including Julia Bohr this hilarious video where he told Julia more she could be an Olympic athlete no she can't she don't tell her to drop out of school to beat Olympic athlete don't tell her to drop her to school to be an Instagram model or you didn't cigar that is absolutely terrible advice he's off to everybody laughing and smiling now he knows just what I'm talking about this guy's dr. evil pazzo vinegar means his 40 year old creeper six foot five 120 kilo guy thinking his car with such a stun bag personally I don't he is such a scumbag so learn her lesson moving on social media I those parents a multi millionaires like actually he said they're not Mira Nancy last-second multi moon is really pernicious sneaky [ __ ] his parents are multi multi-millionaire so Doc table probably spent in KFC or hookers in Beijing uncle he's nature very predatory and did go to court I'll be well testified and that is yen so good good question this is basically asking could this be turned around could this have a happy ending could we patch it up and move on I'm going to ask well I'm going to answer both in the past tense and in the present tense at that time it was totally possible durianrider one year ago even if you just had the boxing match with me think about how much more positive the current situation would be because you know it's hard to take that kind of ease even if you was angry when he came to the boxing match at the end of it you know we will both would have been laughing you don't I mean like any situated so ridiculous if you actually met me at the boxing match I'm sure he would have left with a smile on his face and it'd be patched up and be no big deal if he had actually met me at the police station and pressed his criminal charges against me I'm sure it would be patched up there'll be no big deal if he had met me in a cafe I don't know 50-50 chance but maybe it would invention maybe would have meant a cafe and he would have just screamed at me and wouldn't applause I don't know there was his behavior I don't you know I don't know how that would went but sure one year ago I reached out positively to him I reach ito pause way too freely I apologized too freely you know that made him balaji video freely just cuz hardly asked me to even though they're all the threats of violence sure he totally could have taken responsibility for his actions and turned it around there is no question but that is not the game he plays the game is is that he wants to destroy people you know and um you know today what's what's possible you know what positive can come out of it I I was just teaching class yesterday to children two or three days before I was teaching university age students at the university like one year ago I was applying for jobs teaching children in Japan I work with children I work with teenagers right now I'm teaching most of my students about 20 years old University do this this impacts my life you know like this impacts my life and like you know a vegan vegan Ava was saying recently that when people call her a pedophile on the internet she doesn't care oh I don't know Ava what ambitions do you have in life you know what I mean now again Ava's situation is totally different from mine there's no comparison but you know if I'm applying for jobs well I'm going through a custody battle for my own daughter right now I'm in court trying to just have my human rights crammed to me for custody for my own daughter or I'm applying for jobs in Japan and China I work with children I work with teenagers all of these allegations it's foul it has real consequences and it already has had real consequences my life in my personal life and my professional life this is going to impact the whole rest of my life so when you look at in that context what can durianrider do that's positive to make it better there probably is an answer but you know it would be a big effort on his part sure look maybe leave the second question later XO that's a good question okay so the question is what to me is basically is it pause of all the durianrider sincerely believe the allegations he made against me that this isn't just uh you know an instance your attempt to you know destroy my life uh no it's not possible and there are two different angles the first I'm going to do the short one first one just go back and read the actual conversation he and I had provided Facebook messages which is posted in my video that has threats in the title so during writers threats in his own words and you get to see that absolutely nothing he said and absolutely nothing he did at any point is consistent with somebody who was sincerely concerned who was actually trying to establish the facts or actually trying to protect someone who had you never he never did or said anything that would be consistent with that and if you look back at the beginning the nature of the lies he was telling they kept shifting and they were just based on his own life that he was making up so that is one side of it is just go back and look at what he actually said and he also admits openly that he just had no information he has comments of shown screenshots of this where he just makes these allegations against me and he says but that's just my opinion hey or against um he just says he made it up because of the way my face looks but when he looks at my face that's what he thinks about me so he himself is admitting there is death the truth he said that like more than ten times he said that's just my opinion just looking at his face that's the kind of guy I think he is and that's it so it's not really credible to say at any stage but especially when you look back at the early stage when he was just making this stuff up and he had more Hearst at ten times dead this ever was basis in this era the other thing is in terms of the secret origin of the conflict a lot of people forget what happened at the very beginning okay Julia Bohr we have to give Julia more credit with this it is not her fault Julia Bohr she was a very colorful character Julia Bohr said crazy stuff about me suggesting that I work for the CIA that I'm some kind of mysterious person same kind of stuff other other people instead of a minute the time but Julia Bohr never once claimed or insinuated there was anything sexual between us she never claimed there's anything inappropriate about the email between us I mean her own email was probably pretty inappropriate and what have you Julia Bohr did not make any of this up and we have to really give her credit for that what actually happened was there was a third person in the Triangle who was Lauren Kenzi so Lauren he used to be known as the vegan lass she then became Lauren Phoenix she now uses name Lauren Kenzi Lauren Kenzi briefly was friends with all of us she was friends with durianrider with Julia and with myself at the same time and people who asked people very rarely ask me people who asked why did I send the first message of Julia just a positive measure saying oh hey I'm also going to chain my what's up there is an answer that question I've mentioned a couple videos the answer is because Julia and Lauren used to hate each other they hated each other really really viciously and it videos shouting curse words at each other and then Julia was reasonable and she just decided to settle it and patch it up and they became friends they had this like mature conversation so I was friends with Lauren and Lauren was friends with Julia and Julia had just proven that she could be like reasonable and mature and be like oh hey like this is just you two but I don't really hate you right she had just done that with Lauren and at that time like I think it only lasted for like three weeks but at that time Lauren and Julia were friends so Julia really was a friend of a friend Lauren was my friend and she they had just patched it up so it actually wasn't unreasonable for me to think oh well look you know if you can patch it up with with Lauren hey I'm just going to give you a shout-out say hey you know almost give me a mine they look one thing that on to that if Julia had responded positively or neutrally what would have happened I can tell you exactly would have happened Julia would have come to the karaoke night I hosted remember I did a karaoke night and we had about 12 people there you know it wasn't a huge Amann Julia could have just been at that event she would just would have been one of their vegans she wouldn't met 12 vegans would have had you know we had conversations about stuff there would have been absolutely nothing inappropriate Amina me know just would have been another night during she was into town for months and months on vacation she would have just come to that event that would have been it like you know nothing else would you said okay like she'd written back in kind of a read neutral way I would have just sent her an invitation when I was there saying aye hey look I'm doing this karaoke night if you want to come you can meet a few other you know a few other vegans who are on YouTube done that's it you know what I mean I've never was any possibility or anything else the question was specifically was there anything special about the message to Julia boar or did I basically email like everybody in Chiangmai yeah the answer is I basically email it ready Jim I yeah so no it wasn't it wasn't special which also is weird and I mean during writer tried to blacken me with that to sing like Oh like this guy is contacted like a hundred vegans like yeah you know I'm a vegan youtuber like you know yeah and in Facebook groups as well as email I was just like oh hey look I'm inching my you know if you want to meet up we're going to set and the karaoke night as an example that was open to absolutely everybody that was announced on my youtube channel and on Facebook and probably in an email sent to I don't know minimum twenty people I don't know if I sent 50 people but however many emails ahead so know all that stuff was was was open everybody yeah you know Julie Julia Bohr was never a special Lawrence person to me but we had a friend of a friend in common and that was that was situation yeah and it's interesting note so like other people like foot soldier they try to criticize me for my failure to reach out and try to do something positive with vegans who are my enemies so to speak and on the contrary the thing with Julia is an example of exactly that they say hey this person I'm going to reach out to them in a positive way even though they apparently hate me you know just so you see what you can build on and again at that time she was a friend of Laurens Lauren was a friend of mine and Lauren was so long and enduring writer directly okay so that's why that happened at all what happened next is that Lauren talked to durianrider and durianrider took that as an excuse to start this incredible war against me and for a long time Lauren felt really guilty about it she felt like the whole thing was her fault and I've had to say to Lauren and repeatedly look Lauren during Ryder's reaction this was completely unreasonable it doesn't matter what you said the during Ryder it doesn't justify or explain anything did this is a guy in my opinion who's psychotically just loves to get it'll just be a [ __ ] just be a shit-ton scamming hustlers stole six nine thousand dollars off his audience the Bastille is just harassing chicks on tumblr got a lot of money money and daddy's money nervously self-made is feed off people these parents are multi multi-millionaire in China holding some weird microphone Apple things you've got a lot of money you're a rich spoiled brats and sour [ __ ] you're so boring not to listen to you it will see that this Libeccio guy has been harassing women over social media ayahs or Mossad is the kid the rich fat kid of parents from Lourdes cultural resource so [ __ ] you doing chasing teenage girls hundreds of them online her a son of multi million a multi-million dollar parents and imagine why he's in Asia the mind can only wonder asking them on tumblr and you got a buddy daughter units in McCarthy and you're not even parent child support and you're taking your wife or son apparently led to the way here to court said have to pay job child support or whatever year old six foot five 120 120 kilo douchebag creep bag I got so much money man you're like a multi-million your parents are [ __ ] bankrolling your lifestyle allegedly and but it's all true expected ex likely dealer only the deep is the rich kid living in Asia could be for various reasons you can imagine why for your old man is living in Asia multi-millionaire trust fund kid money for mommy and daddy them back it doesn't generate child support is no longer allowed to see his child anymore [ __ ] look like ah you are in [ __ ] [ __ ] and you sit on your [ __ ] fat ass doing [ __ ] all and you in [ __ ] China and a you in dog festival-goer and you call yourself a [ __ ] activist you're a [ __ ] [ __ ] man predator aisel super rich kid we're talking millions of dollars we're talking the big money here eyes'll has he poses as is porcini reason why fled to China once again pay child support odd matters what this multi-millionaire son gets up to in China and I'm from a bigger tire owner and jealous fat slob bald head crate looking 6-4 520 lat like a male 16 year old girls that he's got a kid he hasn't talked to either he moved to China he refuses to pay child support to his kid who's guys has taken the money I mean but you will notice in the latest video angry vegan did were angry vegan interviewed during writer he also names Lauren as the court source of that right that he talked to he says some girl named Lauren who was in Scotland talked in and that that was his pretext or his excuse or his motivation for starting us so no there there there it is not possible that during Ryder was sincerely responding to what Lauren said down because again Lauren and I were friends I sent her a private video message at that time we'd later did a podcast together it is not humanly possible that durianrider had the sincere delusion that I was romantically involved with both Lauren and Julia bore when Julia was living in Germany Lauren was living in Scotland I was living in Victoria none of us had any interest in each other julia was an ugly stupid foul-mouthed teenager who was extremely overweight and Lauren was struggling with recovery from anorexia she was underweight she was extremely skinny and during writers don't forget his original claim was that I was involved with both of them which was completely impossible completely laughable and he later dropped the claim that I was somehow sexually involved with Lauren for no reason I guess because he realized it made his whole story seem ridiculous and even more difficult to believe but yeah that was his original claim of chemo he claimed I was involved with two underage went women because jury writer falsely assumed that Lauren aka the vegan lasted Lauren was also underage and she's not Lauren's a fully grown woman but because she's so skinny it's really hard to judge your age by her face so the question you're asking boils down to did I want to go ol to Chiangmai uninvited in order to confront Harley enduring Raider I think that kind of sums it up in one sentence as someone who's not advice yeah okay well that that would be a bit more grandiose okay so the question boils down to did I go to Chiang Mai with the intention of disrupting the festival or of confronting hardly entering rather or what have you as someone uninvited who's just in that same city okay now I have answered this in other videos especially getting the technical details of exactly why I arrived when I did and why I left when I did I had a job I was enrolled in the university program was enrolled in a language program at a college all this stuff but that's not really what this questions about the question is about in my heart of hearts did I want to confront during Ryder and his the scene the social scenes he's created in Chiang Mai did I want a kind of theater of ideas to unfold I think would be the most shared way to summarize this view of it so that that was asked to me in another conversation a dialogue I did with dumb vegan and we talked about we talked about that at some wedding um the first part of my response has to be is other people have done that in the past and if that were true of me it's not really such a big deal Briona jackfruits I went two years in a row not just uninvited but you remember this durianrider made videos slamming her sledging her to use during writers views during writer made a whole bunch of video saying that brianna jackfruits and was a terrible person saying that she was secretly had anorexia and eating disorders saying that she's not a real vegan she's a fake vegan and telling her not to come to the festival and something terrible would happen to her she came it's festival and she went anyway two years in a row she she went and confronted and confronted all the Chiangmai people and I think it did help her channel grow I think she now is quite quite a big following quite a big viewer base so Brianna jackfruits indid that she's not the most gangster youtube channel out there you know what I mean she's not like some kind of tough guy it wasn't that big a deal now again if you just look into you just ask her quite a few other people did that people who were not supporters of raw till 4 were not invited but they showed up and talked to people and I think Breanna actually went to festival event so I never did I never wanted to disrupt the festival um so that's kind of point one with a lot the allegations against me I have to ask well if that were true is that really such a bad thing or does that justify anything during writers and against me so if that were true why are you saying this stuff about my mom why why aren't you treating me as a human being if that were true why is it instead with my daughter but though my divorce why what any of it you know why are you saying that I'm not a sexual predator why are you making these kinds of criminal allegations against me it doesn't explain anything if that were true no as it happens it's not true in my case but I would say I think if somebody else did that if somebody else showed up and said look if somebody else showed up and said look these are the issues I'm passionate about I'm passionate about the future of the vegan movement I'm passionate about the difference between pseudoscience and real science I really care about the fact that during write or falsely claimed Ichiro's disease I really care about the fact that freely is publishing lies and they have themselves defamed and slammed so many other people how many channels how many lives is durianrider ruined to be blunt in freelee's case it's a little bit less vile it freely had really denounced and defamed and Sledge a whole bunch people are my friends at that time we already had controversy freely and Aaron Janis so many people pizanno hennya the list goes on and on so many people have attacked well if I had showed up saying let's just say it was busy no and hang on let's just say I showed up I want to talk to jury writer face-to-face say hey because he knows my friend why'd you do this soon let's say that was true does that make me a terrible person let's say I showed up and I was like hey you know what I want to confront her I want to ask him hey man why are you lying that you clerk cured Crohn's disease why are you lying about schizophrenia because I know people this is really impacted I've had email from people and I've talked to people where your message is really impacted lives if I did that does that make me a bad person is that maybe a good person right now as they as it happens it's not true I did want to talk to you I did want to meet face to face Lia pram Staller who was there I did want to be face to face a couple of other vegans who were generally like me who were fans in my channel at the time I met Gaia Gaia is now known as Hannah's ex-girlfriend fascinating you know really brilliant and this vegan activist hope the guy goes on new buzz makes movement I mean just now you know I went I met up with Dexter Chiang Mai's a city I never went to the festival I never went to convert to a writer I never talked to them I never made any attempts to contact during write or freely so this was a conflict a hundred percent created from from during writers side but I just want to challenge the audience if if that were true you know let's judge everyone fairly and equally and you know I think those are all probably questions worth asking probably if some other person did that showed up and said hey I really want to talk to during my tour about the bad advice he's giving people to drop out of school it's another issue the bad impact seven people died Lia prams though she dropped at a high school to go to chain mind do that test bag test bag dropped out of high school to do this I don't approve of that I don't I really think there were moral issues there I think during writer gave terrible vice to everybody including Julia Bohr this hilarious video where he told Julia Bohr she could be an Olympic athlete no she can't she don't tell her to drop out of school to be an Olympic athlete don't tell her to drop her to school to be an Instagram model or you just Cesare that is absolutely terrible advice he's off to everybody's laughing and smiling now he knows just what I'm talking about this guy's so sure I mean if someone did show up at the festival wanting to talk to jury writer about any of those issues you know I don't know I think I would recognize that as a really positive thing and as a courageous thing and as soon as motivated busted by the future of being in movement by keeping it all the way real I was only inching mine for a couple days I had to get my visa paperwork in order I was already enrolled in lessons and starting a new job so I didn't I didn't really want deal with any of it so hey if anything I would criticize myself because that's not what I did we can talk about anything anything you want to talk about anything one so by the way I do have I do have videos about that so there are a couple of issues my change of name I have a recent video that talks about that for you know so long videos I was put at a depth called my nom de guerre so nom de guerre is a French phrase that we use in English but that talks about the death of my father in my family situation but I changed my name long long ago but look the most obvious sign that during writer was lying about that why does my ex-wife have the same name that I do if I changed my name after we got divorced why does she have the same name I do right so not only did I change my name long before that but max wife knew about it and she wanted my current name also right so she's her last name is still Mazar and they said ard wheeze and my daughter's name is Mazar also we all have the same name so the idea that I changed my name afterwards must be a lie my daughter and ex-wife would not have the same name of me as if that were true so otherwise what do you what do you want to know the situation I mean it should be obvious to everyone that absolutely everything during writer is saying about this is a lie and is motivated by malice and is meant to harm me now again so like look just sit before like if you actually have a conflict with somebody whether it's about politics or weight loss but whatever the topic is why are you trying to destroy your life their lives why is during a writer talking about my divorce and the custody my daughter at all why would you have anything to say about it positive or negative what does that have to do with you know veganism or his false claims to have cured Crohn's disease like that was our original dispute the first video during writer ever made responding to me was about Crohn's disease that's the first viewing made directly responding to me and he just defended his claim that he's actually cured an incurable disease by eating more bananas and sleeping better and exercising better now that is I stand by my claims that is scientifically impossible and is untrue durianrider has not cured Crohn's disease we could talk about that we could have addressed and resolved that why is my ex why are you bringing in my ex-wife and my daughter you know just why but I mean if you have any questions about it this is the kind of topic where like I'm willing to talk about it openly but most people is done they want to know I mean I'm divorced I have a four-year-old daughter I've talked about it a lot of my channel my ex-wife declared me in French missing without a trace so that's the equivalent of being m.i.a in other countries I'm missing missing in action or of being legally dead so I have the status in France as if I'm dead because I know I have to choose my words carefully my ex-wife filed paperwork insinuating that I had disappeared without a trace that I was in effect dead or a disappear and there was no way to find me there was no way to locate me and during that whole period of time we had email correspondence went back but I have a youtube channel in case you haven't noticed anyone could have found me by putting my name into Google but it's completely untrue and even after like we didn't we didn't ever stop talking so the reason why I haven't been able to see my daughter in the last couple of years is because I'm legally dead to simplify so it's a very very nasty situation most Americans understand that because under American law that happens quite a lot in the u.s. that's not that unusual for people to try to take away your property or take away your kids or do something bad to you by creating the illusion that you've died or disappeared legally so that's still what's being addressed I'm hoping that just in the next few weeks I finally get a court ruling that will rectify that but that's a very very serious situation and as far as I know my ex-wife also will face criminal charges so that short term that's how she separated me from my daughter but otherwise I mean look you know I've written long blog entries talking about the marriage and how it ended and I wrote those primarily so that my daughter herself could read them one day could read about my divorce and know more about it you know why no why me and my mom broke up none of it has ever been secret if anything like I'm so willing to talk about it most people find it boring you know what I mean and even other people who got in touch with me saying they want to do a podcast and need to talk about it then it's like okay so what do you want to know and they kind of blank out and realize they don't really want to know anything they just got this impression from durianrider that it's somehow mysterious and secret when nothing about it ever was mr. secret you know what I mean so yeah you know um you know I love my daughter I miss my daughter I made many videos reflecting on that and terms of the legal process I have 100% played by the book I just got a lawyer and going through the process and and that's it there is nothing else I can do until you know the legal process itself proceeds in France on somebody who has a long deep involvement with Thailand I was first going to Thailand I think 2002 or 2003 I've studied the history of Thailand the languages and politics town would have really been engaged in meaningful with Thailand and I also have a long history with long-distance cycling in Thailand so I think I mentioned that's you an email or something but like once I rode my bike from VN Chen the capital city of Laos all the way south to the border with Cambodia so going across the Sampo tell I once went west going trying to go all the way from VN Chen to Chiang Mai I did not get that far for the reasons I have a lot of anecdotes myself about long-distance cycling in Thailand but when I did that I was not on vacation I was not I was not just having a good time I was not just trying to get laid or hanging out with other vegans everyone say I was also doing humanitarian work I was engaged in the politics in history and above all in the study of languages and also in the study of Buddhism I was going to put his Temple study senior I was reading I was living a really meaningful life while I was in Thailand and doing the appliance and cycling in Thailand there's a big misconception I heard a couple of a couple of YouTube channels saying this that somehow like I just hate Chiang Mai or that I hate riding a bicycle in Chiang Mai and my answer that is like well no I've said very nuanced things at quite some length about that where my point is well going on vacation is okay fine you want to go on a two-week vacation or even a two-month vocation education I've said that repeatedly but I actually think it's really bad and dangerous to go on permanent vacation and I myself I've gone on vacation you know I mean and I've gone on bike trips bike trip lasts a couple days or whatever you challenge yourself I used to do 115 kilometres a day I have no problem with that you know what I mean now but if that really takes over your life in that way well that's all you've got going on yeah I do think that's sick and sad and bad and dangerous I would say the same about a lot of other hobbies you know I mean this is the only thing you've got all you do is play video games if all you do is watch movies or you know with sports if you're obsessed with football and that's really all your life I do I do think that's a problem and I think it's worthwhile to talk about that in oh boy especially given the background the experience of God now like beyond that okay go so just for you know like if you ask me like have I ever called someone an idiot like how have I ever said like this person you know who's riding a bicycle in Thailand is [ __ ] waste my life is it a Oprah sure um you know example is like vegan Ava like you know but like you know can I say to you like wow I feel really bad for calling vegan Ava [ __ ] [ __ ] No and you know you can go back and watch that video and watch it in context and let you know for sure like I'm calling vegan Ava [ __ ] but I also did reach out to vegan Ava positively even though she had defamed me and said terrible things about both claiming like the court case was a scam which is not you all know that now and terrible things about my personal life my private life same kind of service durianrider claiming like i'm a wife beater and I'm a terrible person and I still research overlooked you want to talk to me I'm regular same I'm talking you now if we can talk about really I can show you legal documents we can actually move forward this you can stop slandering it defaming me you can know what's really going on so even somebody like that but sure like have I called vegan Ava an idiot yes and it's still an amusing video and that's not the deepest contact on my channel but I do have I do have deep meaningful content talking about what was going on in the Chiangmai vegan scene and what my reservations are on both the positive and the negative oh but yeah I don't think it's like a simple one-sided thing it's not like I said everybody riding a bicycle in Chiang Mai is an idiot do I think vegan eight is an idiot yes I do and is vegan about what four five I go yes so you know yeah there's that you know guilty as charged I have definitely called some particular people one on bicycle idiots another example you know like a happy healthy ninety-six I had videos way back like more year ago really saying to her look I know you think this is a good move to drop Reading University and go to chain my to ride a bicycle but really think it through really your long-term so yeah you know what I mean like sure there are particular people was really saying look this is going to impact you for the rest of your life you got to think about but no I don't think it's true that my position was ever like everyone who rides a bicycle is an idiot no so okay so that's a great question so I'll restate the question here so the question was did I paint everyone with the same brush like everyone is vegan Ava like everyone wants to be on permit vacation everyone just wants to make money on YouTube showing off this lifestyle and Chiang Mai or did I recognize that some some people in Chiang Mai part of the scene work more intelligent notice I've got a great example a great counter example of that which is before any of the sex scandal broke Hanna Chloe so I knew Hannah Chloe for a couple of years just via Facebook messages and I made a video that is confronting her but I've talked her about it dr. Burton on skype I made a video where I was saying to Hanna Chloe look you're not this stupid stop pretending to be stupid to fit him with a chain my scene but she made videos where she was really kind of imitating people like freely and happy healthy ninety six and I said look I've talked to you I know you you know she was in school and had a part-time job so she was studying Thai in a university program and I think she Ari has a master's degree she was somebody who had intellectual address like I didn't try to go talk to her she was not the bimbo she was pretending to be so that's a really interesting example that was not just that I'm not saying somebody's an idiot like I'm not calling her I don't regard Hannah Chloe as being as stupid and worthless as vegan Ava but where I'm really pointing a look part of the problem here is that people like anta Chloe even if they are intelligent if they have something going on positive learning was you wouldn't know it from the YouTube channel she never once discussed like what it was like being in classes and learning Thai she never once discussed her job what was going on to office so for me it's like what you're creating this illusion that you're on permanent vacation as some of the other people are but actually you have a lot more meaningful stuff going of actually you're smarter than you appear to be so that's also a really interesting example so like if you ask well do I feed everyone with one with the sort of same brush stroke okay look hey we got a suicide how do those people paint me they really misrepresent reading my you know that you know that the during the motor stylize and defamation but not only do I not do that I thought one of the interesting side effects was that even when people did have some real substance they were kind of hiding it just try to be like freely you know this for me this is the real moral of the story with Sam if you've got a problem with somebody if you've got a disagreement simply whether it's on YouTube or you know in the workplace or anything else there's a difference between addressing that problem and trying to destroy their lives and what durianrider does is not addressing the problem like okay so there's a problem here and this is basically about the ethics of bike racing that's what the problem is you can address that without trying to you know make salacious claims about their sex life and their personal life and their drug use I mean because that's what I've seen from Harley everything he could possibly say to black and this guy Sam's character that's what he gets out and you know I mean he's done worse I mean both with me and with Jason Posey know he'll get your mom involved you know get on the phone to your relatives there is really no limit he'll Docs you you know try to expose public information about you doc saying is violating most of the rules so again alright so Sam [ __ ] up into my impression Sam has apologized for you know basically breaking the code of the road and breaking the ethics of bike racing which even within the sport I understand it's taken seriously because bike racing is its own you know its own little demi-monde okay but you can address that without trying to destroy somebody's life and anything bad I did like look if you watch more of my videos there may be some stuff that offends you or upset you you know if I say something you find offensive about thailand's or politics or about particular people on YouTube or something it's possible most of the time when people actually watch my videos they're shocked at how much less offensive they are like I made a video recently about Sonya Elsie who's you know a well-known vegan and I think people just see the title and assume it's really offensive but if you actually watch the video what I have to say is it's not offensive there's always kind of mismatched expectations that way um but like dude you can address that with me or we can address it publicly it can be a public YouTube debate or whatever without taking it over those limits there's just no reason you know addressing a problem is different somebody trying to destroy somebody's life and I think that's that's part of the sad context of this conversation we're in right now is you're going to remain anonymous we're not going to use your face your name because you know if you say or do anything that's critical of durianrider he's going to try to destroy your life so I'm going to give you a shallow answer and a deep answer the shallow answer is just like remember I see Chiangmai in the context of this whole part of Asia and look one of the things have said again again is look if you're a young person who's trying to get out to see the world there are I think other more important things to see even with in Thailand than Ching mine there's my honest opinion whether you're interested in cycling or veganism or Buddhism you want to see Buddhist temples or the history or archeology or museums there is a lot we're seeing in Thailand but in my honest opinion none of it is in chiang mai when i'm giving advice to people including people going on long distance bike trips I talked to Dexter and I was saying to dexter because i've done long distance bike trips like okay over here in thailand this is a beautiful area that's an interesting area you can see this museum you can visit se-jin temple so in part of it just is look practical down-to-earth advice I don't want to glorify Chiang Mai because in my opinion there are better options even within Thailand just to go as a tourist or yard I'll have a vegan festival and there are better options than Asia as a whole right so you give one example many times have said to people the strongest vegan culture and Asia is in Taiwan you know you can also do long-distance cycling in Taiwan by the way they have a big culture for that and there's an annual vegan festival that just happened about one week ago I think the 12th of the 15th of this month it's one of the biggest vegan festivals in the world and unlike during writers think it's a serious vegan festival you know and you have activists there and Buddhists religious organizations you have a whole range of people coming together so you know one of the the shallow reason is you'll want to talk about these things that we're not wasting our time and not making bad choices right like even if it's just I'm talking to a friend they're an acquaintance who's planning a trip to Thailand it's like well yeah you can go to Chiang Mai but let's really look at what you're going to do in your limited time and money in Thailand and the other hand if we're looking at the whole world a lot of these people it's like well have you thought about going to see the pyramids in Egypt like for the same amount of money you might be able to something really meaningful it's going to change your life and have you thought about your own education and future what you're learning you know I talked about that stuff to death on my channel because for me I had all kinds of reasons to be in Thailand I was studying Palli I was studying Buddhism a study Nepal exciting life so I had reasons why Thailand was a rewarding place to be but if you don't then I think you got to think about that strategically that's the shallow part of the answer the deeper part of the answer is I use these phrases on my channel like keeping it real but I used to be a Buddhist why did I leave the Buddhist religion ultimately ultimately it's because I do not want to be part of a religion that is built on a lie I don't want to live a lie period and you know I don't want to lie about Thailand or Laos or Cambodia and some things no I don't lie about those involved with politics of First Nations people to create a jib way the native people in Canada I'm not looking okay what maybe I should make videos saying it's really wonderful to study the Cree language at First Nations University can and maybe that would boost it up that's never been my approach it's always been look I'm going to come out here and tell the truth I don't want to be part of a religion that's based on a lie you know I was basically raised in left-wing politics and I quit left-wing politics I'm now kind of a moderate practical pragmatic centrist or whatever I don't want to be part of a political movement it's based on a lie I think in a lot of ways subtle and profound as soon as you take that step into making basically propaganda whether it's for a political cause or for a religious cause or even just for tourism then I think you know in a subtle and profound way you're crossing the line into living a lie it's kind of a long conversation - but no I really refuse to do that and it's like right now if you want ask me I'm living this gorgeous part of China if you want to ask me what it's like here I'm going to tell you about both the good and the bad of it you know there are ways in which it's just amazingly beautiful wonderful year but I'm not going to lie to you and for that reason the positive things I tell you I think should be more meaningful because it's in a context what I'm really keeping it real I'm really going to give it to you long that's sorry that's my understand it's not the case that as a white person on the outside you can just kind of buy an airplane ticket or buy a bus ticket and show up and make a positive difference it normally does take years of engaging with the language in Thailand this language barrier and making connections and knowing people politically unless you show up with millions of dollars to start your own your own foundation that's a very very difficult road to hoe but so again I'm keeping it real I'm not going to tell you that it's that it's really easy to make a make a positive difference but I'll tell you one thing it's easy to care caring and compassion will lead you to a kind of engagement where where you really learn where you start learning more and more when I was living in Laos just because I cared you know I got into conversations with people about their experiences during the war you know watching people getting blown to pieces by bombs you learn about that side of their lives and who they are and what they're doing and that kind of just just caring just being interested and why did they tell me those stories because I was already knowledgeable because I'd already done a lot of research they wouldn't have told those stories to someone who was just an ignorant tourist ooh got off the train but I mean caring and compassion I've said before I think they're really most useful as a kind of research tool because you're caring because you're compassionate because you're engaged that's going to lead you into situations where you're going to learn and then eventually after that learning you can make some kind of really meaningful positive difference but say look you can't you show up in New York City and help homeless people you can try but even in the West it's not that easy to show up as a tourist and get involved with something really meaningful and really positive no that's it I mean I'll close this up with you know with my catch phrase either it's about the future of the vegan movement or it's not about anything in a whole ultimately all this stuff matters to me because the future of the vegan movement and that's the question I think all of us are asking ourselves in ways both deep and shallow the future of the vegan movement is not freely the future of the vegan movement is not durianrider and when I first said that two years ago it was controversial and now I don't think anyone would even disagree two years ago they were out here saying that they were the most effective vegan activist in the world and that this was the way forward for veganism and there were guys like me who were critics are they're saying no this is not the future of the vegan movement we got to really think about strategy and tactics and politics and how we're going to move forward this movement and even the people who hate me all of you agree with me now all of you know the future the vegan movement is not very mightor and it's not freely and if you have your own YouTube channel it's not going to be imitating during alignment freely as I understand
probably questions worth asking the probably if some other person did that showed up and said hey I really want to talk to during writer about the bad advice he's giving people to drop out of school it's another issue the bad impact seven people's Ilia pram stole she dropped at a high school to go to chain my and do that test bag test bag dropped out of high school to do this I don't approve of that I don't I really think there were moral issues there I think during writer gave terrible bass to everybody including Julia Bohr this hilarious video where he told Julia more she could be an Olympic athlete no she can't she don't tell her to drop out of school to beat Olympic athlete don't tell her to drop her to school to be an Instagram model or you didn't cigar that is absolutely terrible advice he's off to everybody laughing and smiling now he knows just what I'm talking about this guy's dr. evil pazzo vinegar means his 40 year old creeper six foot five 120 kilo guy thinking his car with such a stun bag personally I don't he is such a scumbag so learn her lesson moving on social media I those parents a multi millionaires like actually he said they're not Mira Nancy last-second multi moon is really pernicious sneaky [ __ ] his parents are multi multi-millionaire so Doc table probably spent in KFC or hookers in Beijing uncle he's nature very predatory and did go to court I'll be well testified and that is yen so good good question this is basically asking could this be turned around could this have a happy ending could we patch it up and move on I'm going to ask well I'm going to answer both in the past tense and in the present tense at that time it was totally possible durianrider one year ago even if you just had the boxing match with me think about how much more positive the current situation would be because you know it's hard to take that kind of ease even if you was angry when he came to the boxing match at the end of it you know we will both would have been laughing you don't I mean like any situated so ridiculous if you actually met me at the boxing match I'm sure he would have left with a smile on his face and it'd be patched up and be no big deal if he had actually met me at the police station and pressed his criminal charges against me I'm sure it would be patched up there'll be no big deal if he had met me in a cafe I don't know 50-50 chance but maybe it would invention maybe would have meant a cafe and he would have just screamed at me and wouldn't applause I don't know there was his behavior I don't you know I don't know how that would went but sure one year ago I reached out positively to him I reach ito pause way too freely I apologized too freely you know that made him balaji video freely just cuz hardly asked me to even though they're all the threats of violence sure he totally could have taken responsibility for his actions and turned it around there is no question but that is not the game he plays the game is is that he wants to destroy people you know and um you know today what's what's possible you know what positive can come out of it I I was just teaching class yesterday to children two or three days before I was teaching university age students at the university like one year ago I was applying for jobs teaching children in Japan I work with children I work with teenagers right now I'm teaching most of my students about 20 years old University do this this impacts my life you know like this impacts my life and like you know a vegan vegan Ava was saying recently that when people call her a pedophile on the internet she doesn't care oh I don't know Ava what ambitions do you have in life you know what I mean now again Ava's situation is totally different from mine there's no comparison but you know if I'm applying for jobs well I'm going through a custody battle for my own daughter right now I'm in court trying to just have my human rights crammed to me for custody for my own daughter or I'm applying for jobs in Japan and China I work with children I work with teenagers all of these allegations it's foul it has real consequences and it already has had real consequences my life in my personal life and my professional life this is going to impact the whole rest of my life so when you look at in that context what can durianrider do that's positive to make it better there probably is an answer but you know it would be a big effort on his part sure look maybe leave the second question later XO that's a good question okay so the question is what to me is basically is it pause of all the durianrider sincerely believe the allegations he made against me that this isn't just uh you know an instance your attempt to you know destroy my life uh no it's not possible and there are two different angles the first I'm going to do the short one first one just go back and read the actual conversation he and I had provided Facebook messages which is posted in my video that has threats in the title so during writers threats in his own words and you get to see that absolutely nothing he said and absolutely nothing he did at any point is consistent with somebody who was sincerely concerned who was actually trying to establish the facts or actually trying to protect someone who had you never he never did or said anything that would be consistent with that and if you look back at the beginning the nature of the lies he was telling they kept shifting and they were just based on his own life that he was making up so that is one side of it is just go back and look at what he actually said and he also admits openly that he just had no information he has comments of shown screenshots of this where he just makes these allegations against me and he says but that's just my opinion hey or against um he just says he made it up because of the way my face looks but when he looks at my face that's what he thinks about me so he himself is admitting there is death the truth he said that like more than ten times he said that's just my opinion just looking at his face that's the kind of guy I think he is and that's it so it's not really credible to say at any stage but especially when you look back at the early stage when he was just making this stuff up and he had more Hearst at ten times dead this ever was basis in this era the other thing is in terms of the secret origin of the conflict a lot of people forget what happened at the very beginning okay Julia Bohr we have to give Julia more credit with this it is not her fault Julia Bohr she was a very colorful character Julia Bohr said crazy stuff about me suggesting that I work for the CIA that I'm some kind of mysterious person same kind of stuff other other people instead of a minute the time but Julia Bohr never once claimed or insinuated there was anything sexual between us she never claimed there's anything inappropriate about the email between us I mean her own email was probably pretty inappropriate and what have you Julia Bohr did not make any of this up and we have to really give her credit for that what actually happened was there was a third person in the Triangle who was Lauren Kenzi so Lauren he used to be known as the vegan lass she then became Lauren Phoenix she now uses name Lauren Kenzi Lauren Kenzi briefly was friends with all of us she was friends with durianrider with Julia and with myself at the same time and people who asked people very rarely ask me people who asked why did I send the first message of Julia just a positive measure saying oh hey I'm also going to chain my what's up there is an answer that question I've mentioned a couple videos the answer is because Julia and Lauren used to hate each other they hated each other really really viciously and it videos shouting curse words at each other and then Julia was reasonable and she just decided to settle it and patch it up and they became friends they had this like mature conversation so I was friends with Lauren and Lauren was friends with Julia and Julia had just proven that she could be like reasonable and mature and be like oh hey like this is just you two but I don't really hate you right she had just done that with Lauren and at that time like I think it only lasted for like three weeks but at that time Lauren and Julia were friends so Julia really was a friend of a friend Lauren was my friend and she they had just patched it up so it actually wasn't unreasonable for me to think oh well look you know if you can patch it up with with Lauren hey I'm just going to give you a shout-out say hey you know almost give me a mine they look one thing that on to that if Julia had responded positively or neutrally what would have happened I can tell you exactly would have happened Julia would have come to the karaoke night I hosted remember I did a karaoke night and we had about 12 people there you know it wasn't a huge Amann Julia could have just been at that event she would just would have been one of their vegans she wouldn't met 12 vegans would have had you know we had conversations about stuff there would have been absolutely nothing inappropriate Amina me know just would have been another night during she was into town for months and months on vacation she would have just come to that event that would have been it like you know nothing else would you said okay like she'd written back in kind of a read neutral way I would have just sent her an invitation when I was there saying aye hey look I'm doing this karaoke night if you want to come you can meet a few other you know a few other vegans who are on YouTube done that's it you know what I mean I've never was any possibility or anything else the question was specifically was there anything special about the message to Julia boar or did I basically email like everybody in Chiangmai yeah the answer is I basically email it ready Jim I yeah so no it wasn't it wasn't special which also is weird and I mean during writer tried to blacken me with that to sing like Oh like this guy is contacted like a hundred vegans like yeah you know I'm a vegan youtuber like you know yeah and in Facebook groups as well as email I was just like oh hey look I'm inching my you know if you want to meet up we're going to set and the karaoke night as an example that was open to absolutely everybody that was announced on my youtube channel and on Facebook and probably in an email sent to I don't know minimum twenty people I don't know if I sent 50 people but however many emails ahead so know all that stuff was was was open everybody yeah you know Julie Julia Bohr was never a special Lawrence person to me but we had a friend of a friend in common and that was that was situation yeah and it's interesting note so like other people like foot soldier they try to criticize me for my failure to reach out and try to do something positive with vegans who are my enemies so to speak and on the contrary the thing with Julia is an example of exactly that they say hey this person I'm going to reach out to them in a positive way even though they apparently hate me you know just so you see what you can build on and again at that time she was a friend of Laurens Lauren was a friend of mine and Lauren was so long and enduring writer directly okay so that's why that happened at all what happened next is that Lauren talked to durianrider and durianrider took that as an excuse to start this incredible war against me and for a long time Lauren felt really guilty about it she felt like the whole thing was her fault and I've had to say to Lauren and repeatedly look Lauren during Ryder's reaction this was completely unreasonable it doesn't matter what you said the during Ryder it doesn't justify or explain anything did this is a guy in my opinion who's psychotically just loves to get it'll just be a [ __ ] just be a shit-ton scamming hustlers stole six nine thousand dollars off his audience the Bastille is just harassing chicks on tumblr got a lot of money money and daddy's money nervously self-made is feed off people these parents are multi multi-millionaire in China holding some weird microphone Apple things you've got a lot of money you're a rich spoiled brats and sour [ __ ] you're so boring not to listen to you it will see that this Libeccio guy has been harassing women over social media ayahs or Mossad is the kid the rich fat kid of parents from Lourdes cultural resource so [ __ ] you doing chasing teenage girls hundreds of them online her a son of multi million a multi-million dollar parents and imagine why he's in Asia the mind can only wonder asking them on tumblr and you got a buddy daughter units in McCarthy and you're not even parent child support and you're taking your wife or son apparently led to the way here to court said have to pay job child support or whatever year old six foot five 120 120 kilo douchebag creep bag I got so much money man you're like a multi-million your parents are [ __ ] bankrolling your lifestyle allegedly and but it's all true expected ex likely dealer only the deep is the rich kid living in Asia could be for various reasons you can imagine why for your old man is living in Asia multi-millionaire trust fund kid money for mommy and daddy them back it doesn't generate child support is no longer allowed to see his child anymore [ __ ] look like ah you are in [ __ ] [ __ ] and you sit on your [ __ ] fat ass doing [ __ ] all and you in [ __ ] China and a you in dog festival-goer and you call yourself a [ __ ] activist you're a [ __ ] [ __ ] man predator aisel super rich kid we're talking millions of dollars we're talking the big money here eyes'll has he poses as is porcini reason why fled to China once again pay child support odd matters what this multi-millionaire son gets up to in China and I'm from a bigger tire owner and jealous fat slob bald head crate looking 6-4 520 lat like a male 16 year old girls that he's got a kid he hasn't talked to either he moved to China he refuses to pay child support to his kid who's guys has taken the money I mean but you will notice in the latest video angry vegan did were angry vegan interviewed during writer he also names Lauren as the court source of that right that he talked to he says some girl named Lauren who was in Scotland talked in and that that was his pretext or his excuse or his motivation for starting us so no there there there it is not possible that during Ryder was sincerely responding to what Lauren said down because again Lauren and I were friends I sent her a private video message at that time we'd later did a podcast together it is not humanly possible that durianrider had the sincere delusion that I was romantically involved with both Lauren and Julia bore when Julia was living in Germany Lauren was living in Scotland I was living in Victoria none of us had any interest in each other julia was an ugly stupid foul-mouthed teenager who was extremely overweight and Lauren was struggling with recovery from anorexia she was underweight she was extremely skinny and during writers don't forget his original claim was that I was involved with both of them which was completely impossible completely laughable and he later dropped the claim that I was somehow sexually involved with Lauren for no reason I guess because he realized it made his whole story seem ridiculous and even more difficult to believe but yeah that was his original claim of chemo he claimed I was involved with two underage went women because jury writer falsely assumed that Lauren aka the vegan lasted Lauren was also underage and she's not Lauren's a fully grown woman but because she's so skinny it's really hard to judge your age by her face so the question you're asking boils down to did I want to go ol to Chiangmai uninvited in order to confront Harley enduring Raider I think that kind of sums it up in one sentence as someone who's not advice yeah okay well that that would be a bit more grandiose okay so the question boils down to did I go to Chiang Mai with the intention of disrupting the festival or of confronting hardly entering rather or what have you as someone uninvited who's just in that same city okay now I have answered this in other videos especially getting the technical details of exactly why I arrived when I did and why I left when I did I had a job I was enrolled in the university program was enrolled in a language program at a college all this stuff but that's not really what this questions about the question is about in my heart of hearts did I want to confront during Ryder and his the scene the social scenes he's created in Chiang Mai did I want a kind of theater of ideas to unfold I think would be the most shared way to summarize this view of it so that that was asked to me in another conversation a dialogue I did with dumb vegan and we talked about we talked about that at some wedding um the first part of my response has to be is other people have done that in the past and if that were true of me it's not really such a big deal Briona jackfruits I went two years in a row not just uninvited but you remember this durianrider made videos slamming her sledging her to use during writers views during writer made a whole bunch of video saying that brianna jackfruits and was a terrible person saying that she was secretly had anorexia and eating disorders saying that she's not a real vegan she's a fake vegan and telling her not to come to the festival and something terrible would happen to her she came it's festival and she went anyway two years in a row she she went and confronted and confronted all the Chiangmai people and I think it did help her channel grow I think she now is quite quite a big following quite a big viewer base so Brianna jackfruits indid that she's not the most gangster youtube channel out there you know what I mean she's not like some kind of tough guy it wasn't that big a deal now again if you just look into you just ask her quite a few other people did that people who were not supporters of raw till 4 were not invited but they showed up and talked to people and I think Breanna actually went to festival event so I never did I never wanted to disrupt the festival um so that's kind of point one with a lot the allegations against me I have to ask well if that were true is that really such a bad thing or does that justify anything during writers and against me so if that were true why are you saying this stuff about my mom why why aren't you treating me as a human being if that were true why is it instead with my daughter but though my divorce why what any of it you know why are you saying that I'm not a sexual predator why are you making these kinds of criminal allegations against me it doesn't explain anything if that were true no as it happens it's not true in my case but I would say I think if somebody else did that if somebody else showed up and said look if somebody else showed up and said look these are the issues I'm passionate about I'm passionate about the future of the vegan movement I'm passionate about the difference between pseudoscience and real science I really care about the fact that during write or falsely claimed Ichiro's disease I really care about the fact that freely is publishing lies and they have themselves defamed and slammed so many other people how many channels how many lives is durianrider ruined to be blunt in freelee's case it's a little bit less vile it freely had really denounced and defamed and Sledge a whole bunch people are my friends at that time we already had controversy freely and Aaron Janis so many people pizanno hennya the list goes on and on so many people have attacked well if I had showed up saying let's just say it was busy no and hang on let's just say I showed up I want to talk to jury writer face-to-face say hey because he knows my friend why'd you do this soon let's say that was true does that make me a terrible person let's say I showed up and I was like hey you know what I want to confront her I want to ask him hey man why are you lying that you clerk cured Crohn's disease why are you lying about schizophrenia because I know people this is really impacted I've had email from people and I've talked to people where your message is really impacted lives if I did that does that make me a bad person is that maybe a good person right now as they as it happens it's not true I did want to talk to you I did want to meet face to face Lia pram Staller who was there I did want to be face to face a couple of other vegans who were generally like me who were fans in my channel at the time I met Gaia Gaia is now known as Hannah's ex-girlfriend fascinating you know really brilliant and this vegan activist hope the guy goes on new buzz makes movement I mean just now you know I went I met up with Dexter Chiang Mai's a city I never went to the festival I never went to convert to a writer I never talked to them I never made any attempts to contact during write or freely so this was a conflict a hundred percent created from from during writers side but I just want to challenge the audience if if that were true you know let's judge everyone fairly and equally and you know I think those are all probably questions worth asking probably if some other person did that showed up and said hey I really want to talk to during my tour about the bad advice he's giving people to drop out of school it's another issue the bad impact seven people died Lia prams though she dropped at a high school to go to chain mind do that test bag test bag dropped out of high school to do this I don't approve of that I don't I really think there were moral issues there I think during writer gave terrible vice to everybody including Julia Bohr this hilarious video where he told Julia Bohr she could be an Olympic athlete no she can't she don't tell her to drop out of school to be an Olympic athlete don't tell her to drop her to school to be an Instagram model or you just Cesare that is absolutely terrible advice he's off to everybody's laughing and smiling now he knows just what I'm talking about this guy's so sure I mean if someone did show up at the festival wanting to talk to jury writer about any of those issues you know I don't know I think I would recognize that as a really positive thing and as a courageous thing and as soon as motivated busted by the future of being in movement by keeping it all the way real I was only inching mine for a couple days I had to get my visa paperwork in order I was already enrolled in lessons and starting a new job so I didn't I didn't really want deal with any of it so hey if anything I would criticize myself because that's not what I did we can talk about anything anything you want to talk about anything one so by the way I do have I do have videos about that so there are a couple of issues my change of name I have a recent video that talks about that for you know so long videos I was put at a depth called my nom de guerre so nom de guerre is a French phrase that we use in English but that talks about the death of my father in my family situation but I changed my name long long ago but look the most obvious sign that during writer was lying about that why does my ex-wife have the same name that I do if I changed my name after we got divorced why does she have the same name I do right so not only did I change my name long before that but max wife knew about it and she wanted my current name also right so she's her last name is still Mazar and they said ard wheeze and my daughter's name is Mazar also we all have the same name so the idea that I changed my name afterwards must be a lie my daughter and ex-wife would not have the same name of me as if that were true so otherwise what do you what do you want to know the situation I mean it should be obvious to everyone that absolutely everything during writer is saying about this is a lie and is motivated by malice and is meant to harm me now again so like look just sit before like if you actually have a conflict with somebody whether it's about politics or weight loss but whatever the topic is why are you trying to destroy your life their lives why is during a writer talking about my divorce and the custody my daughter at all why would you have anything to say about it positive or negative what does that have to do with you know veganism or his false claims to have cured Crohn's disease like that was our original dispute the first video during writer ever made responding to me was about Crohn's disease that's the first viewing made directly responding to me and he just defended his claim that he's actually cured an incurable disease by eating more bananas and sleeping better and exercising better now that is I stand by my claims that is scientifically impossible and is untrue durianrider has not cured Crohn's disease we could talk about that we could have addressed and resolved that why is my ex why are you bringing in my ex-wife and my daughter you know just why but I mean if you have any questions about it this is the kind of topic where like I'm willing to talk about it openly but most people is done they want to know I mean I'm divorced I have a four-year-old daughter I've talked about it a lot of my channel my ex-wife declared me in French missing without a trace so that's the equivalent of being m.i.a in other countries I'm missing missing in action or of being legally dead so I have the status in France as if I'm dead because I know I have to choose my words carefully my ex-wife filed paperwork insinuating that I had disappeared without a trace that I was in effect dead or a disappear and there was no way to find me there was no way to locate me and during that whole period of time we had email correspondence went back but I have a youtube channel in case you haven't noticed anyone could have found me by putting my name into Google but it's completely untrue and even after like we didn't we didn't ever stop talking so the reason why I haven't been able to see my daughter in the last couple of years is because I'm legally dead to simplify so it's a very very nasty situation most Americans understand that because under American law that happens quite a lot in the u.s. that's not that unusual for people to try to take away your property or take away your kids or do something bad to you by creating the illusion that you've died or disappeared legally so that's still what's being addressed I'm hoping that just in the next few weeks I finally get a court ruling that will rectify that but that's a very very serious situation and as far as I know my ex-wife also will face criminal charges so that short term that's how she separated me from my daughter but otherwise I mean look you know I've written long blog entries talking about the marriage and how it ended and I wrote those primarily so that my daughter herself could read them one day could read about my divorce and know more about it you know why no why me and my mom broke up none of it has ever been secret if anything like I'm so willing to talk about it most people find it boring you know what I mean and even other people who got in touch with me saying they want to do a podcast and need to talk about it then it's like okay so what do you want to know and they kind of blank out and realize they don't really want to know anything they just got this impression from durianrider that it's somehow mysterious and secret when nothing about it ever was mr. secret you know what I mean so yeah you know um you know I love my daughter I miss my daughter I made many videos reflecting on that and terms of the legal process I have 100% played by the book I just got a lawyer and going through the process and and that's it there is nothing else I can do until you know the legal process itself proceeds in France on somebody who has a long deep involvement with Thailand I was first going to Thailand I think 2002 or 2003 I've studied the history of Thailand the languages and politics town would have really been engaged in meaningful with Thailand and I also have a long history with long-distance cycling in Thailand so I think I mentioned that's you an email or something but like once I rode my bike from VN Chen the capital city of Laos all the way south to the border with Cambodia so going across the Sampo tell I once went west going trying to go all the way from VN Chen to Chiang Mai I did not get that far for the reasons I have a lot of anecdotes myself about long-distance cycling in Thailand but when I did that I was not on vacation I was not I was not just having a good time I was not just trying to get laid or hanging out with other vegans everyone say I was also doing humanitarian work I was engaged in the politics in history and above all in the study of languages and also in the study of Buddhism I was going to put his Temple study senior I was reading I was living a really meaningful life while I was in Thailand and doing the appliance and cycling in Thailand there's a big misconception I heard a couple of a couple of YouTube channels saying this that somehow like I just hate Chiang Mai or that I hate riding a bicycle in Chiang Mai and my answer that is like well no I've said very nuanced things at quite some length about that where my point is well going on vacation is okay fine you want to go on a two-week vacation or even a two-month vocation education I've said that repeatedly but I actually think it's really bad and dangerous to go on permanent vacation and I myself I've gone on vacation you know I mean and I've gone on bike trips bike trip lasts a couple days or whatever you challenge yourself I used to do 115 kilometres a day I have no problem with that you know what I mean now but if that really takes over your life in that way well that's all you've got going on yeah I do think that's sick and sad and bad and dangerous I would say the same about a lot of other hobbies you know I mean this is the only thing you've got all you do is play video games if all you do is watch movies or you know with sports if you're obsessed with football and that's really all your life I do I do think that's a problem and I think it's worthwhile to talk about that in oh boy especially given the background the experience of God now like beyond that okay go so just for you know like if you ask me like have I ever called someone an idiot like how have I ever said like this person you know who's riding a bicycle in Thailand is [ __ ] waste my life is it a Oprah sure um you know example is like vegan Ava like you know but like you know can I say to you like wow I feel really bad for calling vegan Ava [ __ ] [ __ ] No and you know you can go back and watch that video and watch it in context and let you know for sure like I'm calling vegan Ava [ __ ] but I also did reach out to vegan Ava positively even though she had defamed me and said terrible things about both claiming like the court case was a scam which is not you all know that now and terrible things about my personal life my private life same kind of service durianrider claiming like i'm a wife beater and I'm a terrible person and I still research overlooked you want to talk to me I'm regular same I'm talking you now if we can talk about really I can show you legal documents we can actually move forward this you can stop slandering it defaming me you can know what's really going on so even somebody like that but sure like have I called vegan Ava an idiot yes and it's still an amusing video and that's not the deepest contact on my channel but I do have I do have deep meaningful content talking about what was going on in the Chiangmai vegan scene and what my reservations are on both the positive and the negative oh but yeah I don't think it's like a simple one-sided thing it's not like I said everybody riding a bicycle in Chiang Mai is an idiot do I think vegan eight is an idiot yes I do and is vegan about what four five I go yes so you know yeah there's that you know guilty as charged I have definitely called some particular people one on bicycle idiots another example you know like a happy healthy ninety-six I had videos way back like more year ago really saying to her look I know you think this is a good move to drop Reading University and go to chain my to ride a bicycle but really think it through really your long-term so yeah you know what I mean like sure there are particular people was really saying look this is going to impact you for the rest of your life you got to think about but no I don't think it's true that my position was ever like everyone who rides a bicycle is an idiot no so okay so that's a great question so I'll restate the question here so the question was did I paint everyone with the same brush like everyone is vegan Ava like everyone wants to be on permit vacation everyone just wants to make money on YouTube showing off this lifestyle and Chiang Mai or did I recognize that some some people in Chiang Mai part of the scene work more intelligent notice I've got a great example a great counter example of that which is before any of the sex scandal broke Hanna Chloe so I knew Hannah Chloe for a couple of years just via Facebook messages and I made a video that is confronting her but I've talked her about it dr. Burton on skype I made a video where I was saying to Hanna Chloe look you're not this stupid stop pretending to be stupid to fit him with a chain my scene but she made videos where she was really kind of imitating people like freely and happy healthy ninety six and I said look I've talked to you I know you you know she was in school and had a part-time job so she was studying Thai in a university program and I think she Ari has a master's degree she was somebody who had intellectual address like I didn't try to go talk to her she was not the bimbo she was pretending to be so that's a really interesting example that was not just that I'm not saying somebody's an idiot like I'm not calling her I don't regard Hannah Chloe as being as stupid and worthless as vegan Ava but where I'm really pointing a look part of the problem here is that people like anta Chloe even if they are intelligent if they have something going on positive learning was you wouldn't know it from the YouTube channel she never once discussed like what it was like being in classes and learning Thai she never once discussed her job what was going on to office so for me it's like what you're creating this illusion that you're on permanent vacation as some of the other people are but actually you have a lot more meaningful stuff going of actually you're smarter than you appear to be so that's also a really interesting example so like if you ask well do I feed everyone with one with the sort of same brush stroke okay look hey we got a suicide how do those people paint me they really misrepresent reading my you know that you know that the during the motor stylize and defamation but not only do I not do that I thought one of the interesting side effects was that even when people did have some real substance they were kind of hiding it just try to be like freely you know this for me this is the real moral of the story with Sam if you've got a problem with somebody if you've got a disagreement simply whether it's on YouTube or you know in the workplace or anything else there's a difference between addressing that problem and trying to destroy their lives and what durianrider does is not addressing the problem like okay so there's a problem here and this is basically about the ethics of bike racing that's what the problem is you can address that without trying to you know make salacious claims about their sex life and their personal life and their drug use I mean because that's what I've seen from Harley everything he could possibly say to black and this guy Sam's character that's what he gets out and you know I mean he's done worse I mean both with me and with Jason Posey know he'll get your mom involved you know get on the phone to your relatives there is really no limit he'll Docs you you know try to expose public information about you doc saying is violating most of the rules so again alright so Sam [ __ ] up into my impression Sam has apologized for you know basically breaking the code of the road and breaking the ethics of bike racing which even within the sport I understand it's taken seriously because bike racing is its own you know its own little demi-monde okay but you can address that without trying to destroy somebody's life and anything bad I did like look if you watch more of my videos there may be some stuff that offends you or upset you you know if I say something you find offensive about thailand's or politics or about particular people on YouTube or something it's possible most of the time when people actually watch my videos they're shocked at how much less offensive they are like I made a video recently about Sonya Elsie who's you know a well-known vegan and I think people just see the title and assume it's really offensive but if you actually watch the video what I have to say is it's not offensive there's always kind of mismatched expectations that way um but like dude you can address that with me or we can address it publicly it can be a public YouTube debate or whatever without taking it over those limits there's just no reason you know addressing a problem is different somebody trying to destroy somebody's life and I think that's that's part of the sad context of this conversation we're in right now is you're going to remain anonymous we're not going to use your face your name because you know if you say or do anything that's critical of durianrider he's going to try to destroy your life so I'm going to give you a shallow answer and a deep answer the shallow answer is just like remember I see Chiangmai in the context of this whole part of Asia and look one of the things have said again again is look if you're a young person who's trying to get out to see the world there are I think other more important things to see even with in Thailand than Ching mine there's my honest opinion whether you're interested in cycling or veganism or Buddhism you want to see Buddhist temples or the history or archeology or museums there is a lot we're seeing in Thailand but in my honest opinion none of it is in chiang mai when i'm giving advice to people including people going on long distance bike trips I talked to Dexter and I was saying to dexter because i've done long distance bike trips like okay over here in thailand this is a beautiful area that's an interesting area you can see this museum you can visit se-jin temple so in part of it just is look practical down-to-earth advice I don't want to glorify Chiang Mai because in my opinion there are better options even within Thailand just to go as a tourist or yard I'll have a vegan festival and there are better options than Asia as a whole right so you give one example many times have said to people the strongest vegan culture and Asia is in Taiwan you know you can also do long-distance cycling in Taiwan by the way they have a big culture for that and there's an annual vegan festival that just happened about one week ago I think the 12th of the 15th of this month it's one of the biggest vegan festivals in the world and unlike during writers think it's a serious vegan festival you know and you have activists there and Buddhists religious organizations you have a whole range of people coming together so you know one of the the shallow reason is you'll want to talk about these things that we're not wasting our time and not making bad choices right like even if it's just I'm talking to a friend they're an acquaintance who's planning a trip to Thailand it's like well yeah you can go to Chiang Mai but let's really look at what you're going to do in your limited time and money in Thailand and the other hand if we're looking at the whole world a lot of these people it's like well have you thought about going to see the pyramids in Egypt like for the same amount of money you might be able to something really meaningful it's going to change your life and have you thought about your own education and future what you're learning you know I talked about that stuff to death on my channel because for me I had all kinds of reasons to be in Thailand I was studying Palli I was studying Buddhism a study Nepal exciting life so I had reasons why Thailand was a rewarding place to be but if you don't then I think you got to think about that strategically that's the shallow part of the answer the deeper part of the answer is I use these phrases on my channel like keeping it real but I used to be a Buddhist why did I leave the Buddhist religion ultimately ultimately it's because I do not want to be part of a religion that is built on a lie I don't want to live a lie period and you know I don't want to lie about Thailand or Laos or Cambodia and some things no I don't lie about those involved with politics of First Nations people to create a jib way the native people in Canada I'm not looking okay what maybe I should make videos saying it's really wonderful to study the Cree language at First Nations University can and maybe that would boost it up that's never been my approach it's always been look I'm going to come out here and tell the truth I don't want to be part of a religion that's based on a lie you know I was basically raised in left-wing politics and I quit left-wing politics I'm now kind of a moderate practical pragmatic centrist or whatever I don't want to be part of a political movement it's based on a lie I think in a lot of ways subtle and profound as soon as you take that step into making basically propaganda whether it's for a political cause or for a religious cause or even just for tourism then I think you know in a subtle and profound way you're crossing the line into living a lie it's kind of a long conversation - but no I really refuse to do that and it's like right now if you want ask me I'm living this gorgeous part of China if you want to ask me what it's like here I'm going to tell you about both the good and the bad of it you know there are ways in which it's just amazingly beautiful wonderful year but I'm not going to lie to you and for that reason the positive things I tell you I think should be more meaningful because it's in a context what I'm really keeping it real I'm really going to give it to you long that's sorry that's my understand it's not the case that as a white person on the outside you can just kind of buy an airplane ticket or buy a bus ticket and show up and make a positive difference it normally does take years of engaging with the language in Thailand this language barrier and making connections and knowing people politically unless you show up with millions of dollars to start your own your own foundation that's a very very difficult road to hoe but so again I'm keeping it real I'm not going to tell you that it's that it's really easy to make a make a positive difference but I'll tell you one thing it's easy to care caring and compassion will lead you to a kind of engagement where where you really learn where you start learning more and more when I was living in Laos just because I cared you know I got into conversations with people about their experiences during the war you know watching people getting blown to pieces by bombs you learn about that side of their lives and who they are and what they're doing and that kind of just just caring just being interested and why did they tell me those stories because I was already knowledgeable because I'd already done a lot of research they wouldn't have told those stories to someone who was just an ignorant tourist ooh got off the train but I mean caring and compassion I've said before I think they're really most useful as a kind of research tool because you're caring because you're compassionate because you're engaged that's going to lead you into situations where you're going to learn and then eventually after that learning you can make some kind of really meaningful positive difference but say look you can't you show up in New York City and help homeless people you can try but even in the West it's not that easy to show up as a tourist and get involved with something really meaningful and really positive no that's it I mean I'll close this up with you know with my catch phrase either it's about the future of the vegan movement or it's not about anything in a whole ultimately all this stuff matters to me because the future of the vegan movement and that's the question I think all of us are asking ourselves in ways both deep and shallow the future of the vegan movement is not freely the future of the vegan movement is not durianrider and when I first said that two years ago it was controversial and now I don't think anyone would even disagree two years ago they were out here saying that they were the most effective vegan activist in the world and that this was the way forward for veganism and there were guys like me who were critics are they're saying no this is not the future of the vegan movement we got to really think about strategy and tactics and politics and how we're going to move forward this movement and even the people who hate me all of you agree with me now all of you know the future the vegan movement is not very mightor and it's not freely and if you have your own YouTube channel it's not going to be imitating during alignment freely as I understand